Such a Sap: My Internal Confliction :'(
You'd have thought I'd learned from this when this happened. Apparently not though. Okay, so for our sencond English 101 paper, we have to write about an event or moment that we learned a lesson from. The event I chose from, I never actually got to tell you guys about, because it happened during my Senior year of high school last year. If your wondering, it's about our dog Tanner. In February Marchish, she had been put to sleep, due to her Kidney Disease that she had having getting worse.
This is what I had decided to write about. What you don't know about this is that the day she was put to sleep, I was a zombiefied mess, litterally. I cried throughout most of the day at school, and it wasn't too much fun. Which brings me back to the paper. While I was writing the paper, I became a tear-jerking mess as well. I've been working on this paper for most of the afternoon/evening, and when I was writing it out on paper, I was crying my eyes out like a baby, just as if Tanner was dying in front of me. What's worse is the fact that I know for a fact that I've had two dreams of Tanner dying awhile ago, before it actually happened, but it was after finding out that she had Kidney Disease.
The problem with this is the fact that while I'm writing or typing out the paper, I keep CRYING! If that wasn't going on, I know I would be fine. But, with this crying happening, I'm not sure if I really want to still write it. I mean, I've already finished our first rough draft of it, which has to be five to seven pages long. Luckily, this one is long enough for on Monday. And we have to be comfortable talking about our paper to everyone in class, which I think I am, it's just the fact that I cry everytime I write it that is bugging me.
I'm also wondering why this is happening. I know that I still miss her, because losing her was like losing a member of the family, which of course she was. It also hurt in the fact that she was the first pet my family and I had ever gotten, so that made it really hard as well. I think the reason I've been crying though, is because I still miss her, even though it's been months since she passed away. And the fact that I had two dreams of her dying doesn't exactly make me feel any better. Tell me: what do you guys think?
This is what I had decided to write about. What you don't know about this is that the day she was put to sleep, I was a zombiefied mess, litterally. I cried throughout most of the day at school, and it wasn't too much fun. Which brings me back to the paper. While I was writing the paper, I became a tear-jerking mess as well. I've been working on this paper for most of the afternoon/evening, and when I was writing it out on paper, I was crying my eyes out like a baby, just as if Tanner was dying in front of me. What's worse is the fact that I know for a fact that I've had two dreams of Tanner dying awhile ago, before it actually happened, but it was after finding out that she had Kidney Disease.
The problem with this is the fact that while I'm writing or typing out the paper, I keep CRYING! If that wasn't going on, I know I would be fine. But, with this crying happening, I'm not sure if I really want to still write it. I mean, I've already finished our first rough draft of it, which has to be five to seven pages long. Luckily, this one is long enough for on Monday. And we have to be comfortable talking about our paper to everyone in class, which I think I am, it's just the fact that I cry everytime I write it that is bugging me.
I'm also wondering why this is happening. I know that I still miss her, because losing her was like losing a member of the family, which of course she was. It also hurt in the fact that she was the first pet my family and I had ever gotten, so that made it really hard as well. I think the reason I've been crying though, is because I still miss her, even though it's been months since she passed away. And the fact that I had two dreams of her dying doesn't exactly make me feel any better. Tell me: what do you guys think?