contentment obtained
i finally got peace the other night.
it had been five years since she left this world, and a new face, took me to the most beautiful place i have seen in a long time.
we braved the south carolinian thickery of rag weed and bugs and arrived a the top of a quarry that only bob ross could depict. it was so amazingly beautiful. pink married turquoise high above us as the sun neared the horizon. he made me promise i would go there with him and im so glad i did. we jumped and i was able to fly. we crashed through the warm bathtub water and i swam for the first time since green lake. we competed to see who was smiling more. it was truly breathtaking.
Unfortunately later we found out that a friend had passed. a beautiful girl who was taken at only 22. he, along with this whole town, has taken it pretty hard. she was the first to welcome me here, and i know my mom was the first to welcome her there.
its not as easy as it was at home. its foreign, not getting attention. but i dont think thats what i want right now. ive been poured a glass of someone and im deciding to take it slow, not needing to drown myself.
my obligations have changed. friendships are reshaping. its as smooth of transition as anyone could hope. i was jaded with the fact that so many friends from home didnt want to spend time with me, even to try and solidify any kind of relationship we could manage. im appreciating the recent outreaches. we have been brought together by the stars in the skies and for what ever reason, we have had to take steps away. even though there are miles between us, i am feeling nearer to some. and that, right now, is all i can ask.
it had been five years since she left this world, and a new face, took me to the most beautiful place i have seen in a long time.
we braved the south carolinian thickery of rag weed and bugs and arrived a the top of a quarry that only bob ross could depict. it was so amazingly beautiful. pink married turquoise high above us as the sun neared the horizon. he made me promise i would go there with him and im so glad i did. we jumped and i was able to fly. we crashed through the warm bathtub water and i swam for the first time since green lake. we competed to see who was smiling more. it was truly breathtaking.
Unfortunately later we found out that a friend had passed. a beautiful girl who was taken at only 22. he, along with this whole town, has taken it pretty hard. she was the first to welcome me here, and i know my mom was the first to welcome her there.
its not as easy as it was at home. its foreign, not getting attention. but i dont think thats what i want right now. ive been poured a glass of someone and im deciding to take it slow, not needing to drown myself.
my obligations have changed. friendships are reshaping. its as smooth of transition as anyone could hope. i was jaded with the fact that so many friends from home didnt want to spend time with me, even to try and solidify any kind of relationship we could manage. im appreciating the recent outreaches. we have been brought together by the stars in the skies and for what ever reason, we have had to take steps away. even though there are miles between us, i am feeling nearer to some. and that, right now, is all i can ask.