shitty start to 2009
1: i'm sick
i almost never get sick, but here i am, sick. i took a sick day yesterday and i still have a fever but i'm at work today.
2: bad start to nyr
first nyr is to get fit like usual. well i went to the gym last tuesday on 12/30, and the pain / soreness in my upper left back is even worse than before so i don't wanna go to the gym. also the last two basketball games on saturday were cancelled. i need to make a doctor's appointment soon.
second nyr was to be more social. with that said i haven't gone out in forever. i did go to daisuke's for new years but it only made me less confident because there were just 6 guys there, but other than that i shut myself in my house and played games. it's probably because i rely on marc too much to find the parties, i don't know anyone else that does.
3: can't seem to get my life in gear
i think the most in control i ever felt was like, a month after i started working at square. i controlled my diet well and woke up on time, i went to the gym when i needed to, i earned my moneys and made steady strides to improve myself, constantly picking up new skills.
now i feel like i'm spiraling out of control, over-relying on certain people to get my own shit done, i'm constantly wasting food by buying it and not finishing it or ever cooking it, i never sleep on time (which is probably why i'm sick), and not progressing in things that i keep saying i want to do.
maybe i should start changing now. but goddamn i'm so tired when i get home from work.
i almost never get sick, but here i am, sick. i took a sick day yesterday and i still have a fever but i'm at work today.
2: bad start to nyr
first nyr is to get fit like usual. well i went to the gym last tuesday on 12/30, and the pain / soreness in my upper left back is even worse than before so i don't wanna go to the gym. also the last two basketball games on saturday were cancelled. i need to make a doctor's appointment soon.
second nyr was to be more social. with that said i haven't gone out in forever. i did go to daisuke's for new years but it only made me less confident because there were just 6 guys there, but other than that i shut myself in my house and played games. it's probably because i rely on marc too much to find the parties, i don't know anyone else that does.
3: can't seem to get my life in gear
i think the most in control i ever felt was like, a month after i started working at square. i controlled my diet well and woke up on time, i went to the gym when i needed to, i earned my moneys and made steady strides to improve myself, constantly picking up new skills.
now i feel like i'm spiraling out of control, over-relying on certain people to get my own shit done, i'm constantly wasting food by buying it and not finishing it or ever cooking it, i never sleep on time (which is probably why i'm sick), and not progressing in things that i keep saying i want to do.
maybe i should start changing now. but goddamn i'm so tired when i get home from work.