Looking like shit every day
and it's getting worse I'm telling you.
I guess I'm starting to really feel like it's my time to catch that blond little fish I fancy.*
I recently understood I should switch to my hunting mode if I want some good things to happen to me but now what, I mentally inventoried my 'add-ons' and I have none. I miss those all. If it's not enough to start a race with no clues of how to do it right, no experience in the field, I have everything slowing me down.
I should give up already right. I mean a body doesn't change that easily, I'll only cry in the end, because once I take something at heart it's for good (forever). But abandoning the hunt means abandoning myself to bad habits, bad eating habits if it can get worse (and I bet it could).
I can't let this happen, it makes me feel like throwing up. Watching myself in the mirror makes me feel like throwing up.
I see my friends tweeting and right now, I just want to be by myself, I don't want to think of the next concerts, I have no confidence, no hope at all, I just look like shit I don't even want to see anyone like that. I'm not sure when I lost it, but right now it has gone overboard. I can't anymore.
*I just want it. It would allow me to keep my life I think, maybe not, I just, it's been two years and exactly 7 months since he caught my interest, it's only today that I consider him seriously;
I guess I'm starting to really feel like it's my time to catch that blond little fish I fancy.*
I recently understood I should switch to my hunting mode if I want some good things to happen to me but now what, I mentally inventoried my 'add-ons' and I have none. I miss those all. If it's not enough to start a race with no clues of how to do it right, no experience in the field, I have everything slowing me down.
I should give up already right. I mean a body doesn't change that easily, I'll only cry in the end, because once I take something at heart it's for good (forever). But abandoning the hunt means abandoning myself to bad habits, bad eating habits if it can get worse (and I bet it could).
I can't let this happen, it makes me feel like throwing up. Watching myself in the mirror makes me feel like throwing up.
I see my friends tweeting and right now, I just want to be by myself, I don't want to think of the next concerts, I have no confidence, no hope at all, I just look like shit I don't even want to see anyone like that. I'm not sure when I lost it, but right now it has gone overboard. I can't anymore.
*I just want it. It would allow me to keep my life I think, maybe not, I just, it's been two years and exactly 7 months since he caught my interest, it's only today that I consider him seriously;