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so i still think this sucks. its not getting any better, i'm just getting used to the sucking. and while that makes it easier, i'm not exactly happy. actually i'm really not happy at all. i find that most of the people that i meet here are really pretty annoying. either that or incredibly stupid which i find to be incredibly annoying (its a pet peave). but not stupid in a common sense way, because i can deal w/ that (obviously....look at kendall! ;) i love you). stupid in a worldly way. And the people that i have met that i can be around for any extended period of time, I haven't really formed any sort of out of class connection with so that doesnt matter anyway. The only people that i really enjoy being around are claire and carly and I love them to death but i have to make new friends at some point. and it makes me really sad like every day to think about the fact that i really dont have anyone to call on here. all i do all day is go to class, do work and sit around in my room, and eat. I feel so bored with my life which i can tell you is not exactly the best feeling in the world. i'm down all of the time, if i am ever happy its for a very short span of time. I almost feel depressed. except its not really depression, it's just sort of sad boredness. i get annoyed with people really easily. I'm actually getting to the point of being anti-socialish just because people are irritating me so much. But obivously, being anti-social doesnt help the friendless situation at all. it's like a vicious circle. Fuck, I hate vicious circles. so mean and cruel. oh...and to top it all off, my dad's an ass, my mom is layin on a very thick guilt trip because i dont call her all the time, and i miss marty so much that i'm back to crying every day. WOOOOOOOO. yay college.