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I'm a bit scared. It is a month until we are supposed to move out or sign another lease to our apartment, and we aren't even ready for MN. Mike tried to get a job in MN but not very hard. I also tried but not very hard. I guess it is easier just to stay put, even if I am not fully happy. I have the feeling we are not leaving again. I am not super disapointed about staying here, although I don't like it here much and my job sucks. Mike matters a lot to me. He has taken better care of me in these past couple of years than any of my family has in my life. I would like to hold on to him to see how things go, even if it means another year of being unhappy about where I live. Back to the part about being scared- I am scared that I will never leave here and I will lose touch with my friends. I love my friends/family in MN and I don't want to lose them but it has been 2 years now and it doesn't feel like I am coming back anytime soon. It feels as if I am losing a part of my life. I am not losing my friends/family though. I know that just because I don't live there doesn't mean we arent friends anymore. I still keep in touch with my NM friends, although I don't go there often. Love and relationships are hard to keep together. I am about ready to give up on MN since I know it is almost too late to go there, at least until Feb and then by then who knows what will happen. I just want all my friends there to know that I love you and miss you!
On another note I am not looking forward to working another holiday season at BBY. I am 1/2 people in my department now. The rest got fired or quit for school. Working in retail during the holiday season just sucks. Our stores physical inventory is on the 21st, which is basically us staying from 3pm-3am counting every item we have in the store over and over again, and then after that me coming in at 9am to work. Right before that comes my week of Warhammer! Open beta started yesterday and I think closed beta for collectors edition people starts on the 14th so I am excited. My laptop came back from the service center but even with the graphics turned all the way down my performance is still shitty. I guess for my engagement present I should have gone for the ring or a desktop pc instead! Speaking of engagements-I was thinking about Mike and I's engagement...It has been almost a year now and most people get married a year after their engagement and we are still sitting on ours. Nothing wrong with that really. You never know what life will have in store for you. Oh and I got a new obsession! I have always wanted to watch the show One Tree Hill but I never got the chance to. A couple weeks ago I went to hulu.com and watched half of the first season and loved it so Mike got me the 2nd and 3rd seasons. The sucky part is they cost $48 or $38 for employees but it is still expensive and I have 2 more seasons to watch. Maybe I should rent it from blockbuster! It is a good show though. I would totally F@#$ Chad Michael Murray. Time to try the squig herder in warhammer! Waaagh!!
On another note I am not looking forward to working another holiday season at BBY. I am 1/2 people in my department now. The rest got fired or quit for school. Working in retail during the holiday season just sucks. Our stores physical inventory is on the 21st, which is basically us staying from 3pm-3am counting every item we have in the store over and over again, and then after that me coming in at 9am to work. Right before that comes my week of Warhammer! Open beta started yesterday and I think closed beta for collectors edition people starts on the 14th so I am excited. My laptop came back from the service center but even with the graphics turned all the way down my performance is still shitty. I guess for my engagement present I should have gone for the ring or a desktop pc instead! Speaking of engagements-I was thinking about Mike and I's engagement...It has been almost a year now and most people get married a year after their engagement and we are still sitting on ours. Nothing wrong with that really. You never know what life will have in store for you. Oh and I got a new obsession! I have always wanted to watch the show One Tree Hill but I never got the chance to. A couple weeks ago I went to hulu.com and watched half of the first season and loved it so Mike got me the 2nd and 3rd seasons. The sucky part is they cost $48 or $38 for employees but it is still expensive and I have 2 more seasons to watch. Maybe I should rent it from blockbuster! It is a good show though. I would totally F@#$ Chad Michael Murray. Time to try the squig herder in warhammer! Waaagh!!