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Still uncomfortable posting on the internet, or a journal
Been listening to some music that reminds me of someone I once was
Went through old yahoo mail to find a password to an old yahoo account from high school and my nearly forgotten teacher
Instead I found a multitude of names of people I don't know anymore
And a picture of Pam Carter, the first girl I liked the presence of at CSA
And I feel like I'm not allowed to feel certain ways
And I'm pretty sure that's not good
And too many things are changing right now.
Why write here? I don't know anyone who would read.
And myspace kicked me out for not wanting to say my birthyear at first. I guess now I'm 14. Which is awesome, because I'm just barely over feeling like that.
Too many things in this little brain and no one to talk to. But that's how I made it. And I feel like I dropped a lot for a boy I care a whole hell of a lot for, else I wouldn't have lost so much. I just wish he could be here now like I need.
Why can't I just do my schoolwork instead like normal people?
I need to better figure out when to feel.
Been listening to some music that reminds me of someone I once was
Went through old yahoo mail to find a password to an old yahoo account from high school and my nearly forgotten teacher
Instead I found a multitude of names of people I don't know anymore
And a picture of Pam Carter, the first girl I liked the presence of at CSA
And I feel like I'm not allowed to feel certain ways
And I'm pretty sure that's not good
And too many things are changing right now.
Why write here? I don't know anyone who would read.
And myspace kicked me out for not wanting to say my birthyear at first. I guess now I'm 14. Which is awesome, because I'm just barely over feeling like that.
Too many things in this little brain and no one to talk to. But that's how I made it. And I feel like I dropped a lot for a boy I care a whole hell of a lot for, else I wouldn't have lost so much. I just wish he could be here now like I need.
Why can't I just do my schoolwork instead like normal people?
I need to better figure out when to feel.