nothing is quite as it seems

[kaikaia]

I'm sitting here listening to Kat's CD she so ever gracefully gave to me and oh how thankful I must say I am for it. Today I confessed a very dark secret to a friend of mine whom I haven't spoken with for quite some time...for whatever reason it was so easy to trust them. -one of my weaknesses--trust- I want so much now; I want to get from A to Z without all the letters in between getting in the way. I want peace of mind, to be held, I you to be here with me, success without failure, failure without consequence.I dream of a soul I can be sideways with or straight forward either way they'll still understand what I'm talking about. They can look right into my eyes and know there aren't words to describe it so instead they wrap they're arms around me and it's settled at that. I don't wish nor do I want to be so needy; a trait I have never desired for myself but certainly at times have taken on I would just like to talk...because where am at right now nothing is what I thought it was and these feelings won't go away.
Patience,
Heat

Being still
I'm staying right here
I wont move

Ever so still
Can you even tell I'm here?
Right here
So Close

Learning what cant be taught
Getting by
On the last taste of love
What you gave me
That was true

Skid my knees as I fall
But I'm still
Still here

Can you even tell I'm here?
Right here
So close
I'm being so still
Evere so still

You take the blindfold off
Let me present myself
Present love
Let love present itself

Being still
Staying here
You taught me
Brought out
What could not be taught