Life? Is that you?
The darkness has lifted and I can see the light. The world is actually quite pretty now that I can look at it with unclouded eyes. Sure, there are still pain and misery going on but my personal little world where I live, eat, sleep, work and exist is quite okay.
After 4 months I've decreased my dosage of Concerta with 25% and fuck me sideways on a pogostick if I don't feel like a whole new person! I can function again! Looks like starsmore was right 3 months ago that it was indeed my meds but I, like the fool I am, thought it was just a phase as the meds set in. Looks like I was wrong... again. Should've trusted my instinct when the doc said I should double the dose as I was thinking that maybe I should increase the dosage slowly. Had I done so I wouldn't have gone into that darkness and gotten aggressive, apathetic and all of that. Stupid me who didn't listen to instinct. *slaps self*
Snowing outside but who cares? It actually looks nice. Just hope I can hitch a ride home from work 'cause I sure as heck don't wanna walk in it and get all wet. xP
As a parting gift I leave you with the wonderful drawing by Hans Lindström, one of my favourite artists all times. <3
His drawings can be found here.
