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minna-san, ohayou gozaimasu. :)
alright it definitely is not morning from where i'm writing, but it is a new day. and right now is another evening spent on the contemplation of all this stuff that is life. let me start by posting a song lyric, and then tell you what i think (and thought of it)
(There's Gotta Be) More to Life
Stacie Orrico
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
To life..
nice song, and a cute video from what i remember of it. the lyrics are also telling of the struggle of people to find "more" than what life is currently giving them.
i used to feel this way. and heck, i've gone through enough of life (a lot of the crappy parts of it anyway) to have an acute sense of lack, of wanting more--be it more money, more success, more status, influence, love, stuff, friends, etc., ad infinitum
i went through a lot of the temporary highs, moments bordering on hubris, or just plain egotism. tripping out on the euphoria of achievement, or acceptance, superiority, righteousness, and yes, the more mundane substances that you ingest or indulge in to give you those sorts of feelings--like alcohol, drugs, food (the more decadent the better), and everything else.
and that's exactly what i got from all of that stuff, a temporary high. thing is, these highs eventually end. and you end up crashing "down to earth" again, and thinking, "there's gotta be more..." so you go off and get more, falling deeper and deeper into your addiction.
and so here i was, going through this cycle, over and over, happiness and hurt, abundance and want, up and down.
life just became this race up a mountain, with everything i want at the top, and every biatch and asshole blocking my path towards it. i thought, in order for me to get there, i'd need to carve my way up this hill. charge in, kick ass, take names. either people stepped aside, or waited till i passed to pick up their severed body parts.
of course in such a world you realise that you're not the only game in town, and that there are others that will positively P0wnz0r Y3r $0rRy @r$3. and it was during one of these times, where there i was in the only place i had left to seek solace, aloe, looking at the ceiling where i thought, "there has to be another way".
and there is, if you're only willing to look. for what?, you might be asking. well, it's not a "what" i found, but actually "how".
yup. you'll see the "other ways" to life spread out before you when you learn to look at the world (and your life and its place in it) differently. stay with me for a second and i'll show you how.
think for a moment of life as not having any dimensions. no up or down. no one being higher or lower than you. no one worse or better off. not even good or bad. think that you're not in a race, but you, and everyone you know are all on this broad, circular highway. it's got room for everyone to be on it, and it goes around so you can't really be further up or be lagging behind anybody. (still there?) now, think that you're all on a seperate path, and while your path and someone else's may cross for a while, they can't really be the same path, so you're not crowding anyone out, nor would they be able to crowd you out. you can just share the road--it's big enough. finally, think that your path can go where you want it to go. by simply just going there.
world's a little less cramped now is it?
life (the universe, everthing.... hee. :) ) is big enough for you and your dreams, and everybody else's to co-exist. remember we're going through life for no one else but us. we're not beholden to anyone, and nor should you expect anyone to be beholden to you.
so just be. live. dream. hope. love. and... smile. :)
alright it definitely is not morning from where i'm writing, but it is a new day. and right now is another evening spent on the contemplation of all this stuff that is life. let me start by posting a song lyric, and then tell you what i think (and thought of it)
(There's Gotta Be) More to Life
Stacie Orrico
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
To life..
nice song, and a cute video from what i remember of it. the lyrics are also telling of the struggle of people to find "more" than what life is currently giving them.
i used to feel this way. and heck, i've gone through enough of life (a lot of the crappy parts of it anyway) to have an acute sense of lack, of wanting more--be it more money, more success, more status, influence, love, stuff, friends, etc., ad infinitum
i went through a lot of the temporary highs, moments bordering on hubris, or just plain egotism. tripping out on the euphoria of achievement, or acceptance, superiority, righteousness, and yes, the more mundane substances that you ingest or indulge in to give you those sorts of feelings--like alcohol, drugs, food (the more decadent the better), and everything else.
and that's exactly what i got from all of that stuff, a temporary high. thing is, these highs eventually end. and you end up crashing "down to earth" again, and thinking, "there's gotta be more..." so you go off and get more, falling deeper and deeper into your addiction.
and so here i was, going through this cycle, over and over, happiness and hurt, abundance and want, up and down.
life just became this race up a mountain, with everything i want at the top, and every biatch and asshole blocking my path towards it. i thought, in order for me to get there, i'd need to carve my way up this hill. charge in, kick ass, take names. either people stepped aside, or waited till i passed to pick up their severed body parts.
of course in such a world you realise that you're not the only game in town, and that there are others that will positively P0wnz0r Y3r $0rRy @r$3. and it was during one of these times, where there i was in the only place i had left to seek solace, aloe, looking at the ceiling where i thought, "there has to be another way".
and there is, if you're only willing to look. for what?, you might be asking. well, it's not a "what" i found, but actually "how".
yup. you'll see the "other ways" to life spread out before you when you learn to look at the world (and your life and its place in it) differently. stay with me for a second and i'll show you how.
think for a moment of life as not having any dimensions. no up or down. no one being higher or lower than you. no one worse or better off. not even good or bad. think that you're not in a race, but you, and everyone you know are all on this broad, circular highway. it's got room for everyone to be on it, and it goes around so you can't really be further up or be lagging behind anybody. (still there?) now, think that you're all on a seperate path, and while your path and someone else's may cross for a while, they can't really be the same path, so you're not crowding anyone out, nor would they be able to crowd you out. you can just share the road--it's big enough. finally, think that your path can go where you want it to go. by simply just going there.
world's a little less cramped now is it?
life (the universe, everthing.... hee. :) ) is big enough for you and your dreams, and everybody else's to co-exist. remember we're going through life for no one else but us. we're not beholden to anyone, and nor should you expect anyone to be beholden to you.
so just be. live. dream. hope. love. and... smile. :)