Starting to fall again...
Moving back in was the biggest mistake i've ever made. Slowly i get drained away and i lose my sanity. Once my brother gets a job, and once i get another job i'm getting out of this fucking hellhole. If i don't i swear i'll fucking kill myself. Again i put my life in the Lord's hands. Whether he wants me to suffer or put me out of my misery, i don't give a rats ass anymore, cuz either way, i've already lost everything in my fucking life and there's nothing left to lose. Hopefully God will compromise with me and put me out of my misery soon.