I'm on my own...
Re-enactment of my mom and my conversation...
Mom: How are things with Jin
Me: Not good.
Mom: why?
Me: I don't like him
Mom: So you guys are going to break up?
Me: Yeah
Mom: I guess you have to find another person to like huh?
Me: I already did.
Mom: Who?
Me: A really close friend.
Mom: Where is he from?
Me: Seattle
Mom: Is he korean?
Me: Half
Mom: ......
Me: .....
Mom: You know, i'd rather you date somebody that's korean
Me: I already did. Besides, you know i don't get along with koreans
Mom: Yeah but i want you to get married to a korean guy
Me: Why?
Mom: Because i just want you too
Me: Then i'm not getting married
Mom: That's a bad mistake
Me: No, me getting married to a korean guy is a mistake
Mom: How can you say that?
Me: How can you tell me who to marry and who not to marry. Isn't it my choice?
Mom: I don't care. You're getting married to a korean man
Me: I won't get married
Mom: Don't be stubborn
Me: I'm not being stubborn
Mom: Yes you are.
Me: So you would rather me marry someone i dont' even fucking love, then marry and be happy WITH the one i love. That's messed up. Again, a koreans perspective, and you always try to tell me koreans are better, telling me all this shiet about dad's family. Then why the fuck did you marry him???? Tell me that?
Mom: Because i loved him
Me: Then divorce him. I want you to divorce dad. You can't can you.
Mom: All i'm telling you is that you're marrying a korean guy.
Me: And predetermining my future? No. You can't do that. You can raise Serenity to be MORE korean, MORE koreanized, but you can't just change who i am, and make my own choices. Sorry i failed you as a daugther again. Sorry i'm not so fuckin perfect. Sorry i don't wear pounds of makeup like the other korean girls, and SORRY that the way i dress annoys you, but at least i know who i am.
Mom: .....
Me: How bout this then. I'll ask dad, and if he says no, then i won't
Mom: Really?
Me: No i'll keep trying.
Mom: I'll think about it
Me: I can't believe you can't trust your own daughters judge of character. You raised me better then that.
Mom: .......
Me: You don't even know what to say.
Mom: I'll talk to dad about it
Me: And if he says no, i'm still gonna keep trying.
Mom: ......
well so far, i've got to my mom, and she's the hard one. Now it's my dad. But hey... My dad has nothing to say, cuz half of his family is japanese ahahahahaha.
Mom: How are things with Jin
Me: Not good.
Mom: why?
Me: I don't like him
Mom: So you guys are going to break up?
Me: Yeah
Mom: I guess you have to find another person to like huh?
Me: I already did.
Mom: Who?
Me: A really close friend.
Mom: Where is he from?
Me: Seattle
Mom: Is he korean?
Me: Half
Mom: ......
Me: .....
Mom: You know, i'd rather you date somebody that's korean
Me: I already did. Besides, you know i don't get along with koreans
Mom: Yeah but i want you to get married to a korean guy
Me: Why?
Mom: Because i just want you too
Me: Then i'm not getting married
Mom: That's a bad mistake
Me: No, me getting married to a korean guy is a mistake
Mom: How can you say that?
Me: How can you tell me who to marry and who not to marry. Isn't it my choice?
Mom: I don't care. You're getting married to a korean man
Me: I won't get married
Mom: Don't be stubborn
Me: I'm not being stubborn
Mom: Yes you are.
Me: So you would rather me marry someone i dont' even fucking love, then marry and be happy WITH the one i love. That's messed up. Again, a koreans perspective, and you always try to tell me koreans are better, telling me all this shiet about dad's family. Then why the fuck did you marry him???? Tell me that?
Mom: Because i loved him
Me: Then divorce him. I want you to divorce dad. You can't can you.
Mom: All i'm telling you is that you're marrying a korean guy.
Me: And predetermining my future? No. You can't do that. You can raise Serenity to be MORE korean, MORE koreanized, but you can't just change who i am, and make my own choices. Sorry i failed you as a daugther again. Sorry i'm not so fuckin perfect. Sorry i don't wear pounds of makeup like the other korean girls, and SORRY that the way i dress annoys you, but at least i know who i am.
Mom: .....
Me: How bout this then. I'll ask dad, and if he says no, then i won't
Mom: Really?
Me: No i'll keep trying.
Mom: I'll think about it
Me: I can't believe you can't trust your own daughters judge of character. You raised me better then that.
Mom: .......
Me: You don't even know what to say.
Mom: I'll talk to dad about it
Me: And if he says no, i'm still gonna keep trying.
Mom: ......
well so far, i've got to my mom, and she's the hard one. Now it's my dad. But hey... My dad has nothing to say, cuz half of his family is japanese ahahahahaha.