clean, & sober... FUCK MAN! * i wish i wasnt*

[kahula_n_cream]

so, yea im still in fucking rehab... but its not that bad, i've got 31 days clean... YAY! haha! so yea i guess everything has been pretty good, i made alot of new friends, but i dunno im juss really confused... i mean i feel like im juss a big fuck up, & what sux is that to me & everyone else all i am is a fuck up. i mean i feel theres no point in even trying to do the right thing, cuz it doesnt seem to change anything... everyone seems to only look at me as the fuck up, & it really fucking pisses me off! & what makes it worse is i cant seem to make it work with my boyfriend, i mean FUCK im in love with him, but everything is trying to pull us away, ppl r saying we arent meant for each other... i mean fuck if u dont want me & him together then fuck u! i mean god i even have some of my friends saying that i shouldnt be with him, & honastly if u were my true friend u would relize that im IN love with him, & that im happy! so if u dont think we should be together kiss my ass, & stop talking shit! cuz u no what i have enough shit to worry about, & i dont need to listen to a bunch of ppl's bullshit... so fucking get a life, & stay the fuck out of mine!

xoxo~gracie