kaya ba ni isay 'to?
FAMILIAR,
I don’t really know where to start. I’ve been with you guys for a little over five months now. We’ve been through a lot, I’ll say. There were fights and there were problems, but we’re still here, aren’t we? I guess those instances are just meant to add a little flavor to this friendship. The ride wouldn’t have been half as interesting if it’s been all good, would it?
As I always do, I have plenty of things to say to you. I’ll start off with an apology. I know I am a heinous bitch, so I’m pretty sure that I’ve hurt you all with the words I say at least once during the time I was with you. It really is my nature to be brutally honest, but I guess everything has limits. I know some comments that came out of my mouth were uncalled for, and again, I’m sorry. One other thing I wish to apologize for is pushing you guys. I guess I just wanted you guys to make the most out of life while you’re young. I have a lot of regrets - things I didn’t try mainly because we couldn’t afford it - and I didn’t want the same thing to happen to you. Although I’m young, I feel so old. But I went overboard, though, so sorry.
But thank you, most especially for bearing with me. More than just a band that I’m managing, you guys have become my friends. I tell you things, you tell me things. Thank you for the conversations, for listening to me, and for letting me listen to what you have to say. It feels good that although you haven’t known me that long, you trust me enough to tell me the things you’ve shared.
Gershwin, thank you for letting me edit your work. You’re a great writer, and I believe that with all my heart. I would love to read more from you. If you ever write that novel, I’d be more than willing to edit it for you. Your writing helped me with mine, actually, so thanks again.
Mathew, thank you for letting me review your work. You’re going to go places with your photography, I’m sure of it. One day, I’m sure I’ll pick up a random book and see that you designed the cover or something. Maybe you could do that for Gershwin’s novel.
Marvie, thank you for the conversations and for the constant accompaniment during gigs, for bearing with me when I’m being more delusional than normal, and for the jokes - you make me smile in the most unusual ways. I appreciate it more than I can say it, really.
Dan, I’ve said this before and I’m going to say it again, you always were the appreciative one, and I thank you for that. You’re one of the forces that kept me sane all this time. Thank you for your openness and your honesty. Your confidence in my so-called management skills kept me afloat, especially at times when I feel like I’m in over my head.
Raymond, thank you for having me manage the group, it was a great experience for me. I know we’ve had our differences, but hey, siblings always had misunderstandings anyway - it’s part of the package, I guess. Thank you for your patience with me, especially when I fall short of expectations, when I don’t do my job as well as I promised. Thank you for this experience, I really learned a lot.
I guess after those things, you already figured out what I’m about to say next - goodbye. I’m leaving Familiar at the end of November. I feel silly, actually, doing this now - I’ve threatened to quit so many times before and yet I stay. Sad to say, I’ve had enough with the empty threats, like you guys, so I’m leaving. I have a lot of reasons; although I have to admit only one of them makes sense to me.
Please don’t think I’m leaving because of something you guys said or did. I’m leaving because of me, because I don’t know how to deal. I don’t think I’m good enough for you guys. You’ll find a better manager, I’m sure, someone who can take you guys places I can’t, someone who isn’t an emotional fuckwit like me, and someone who won’t make you do things you don’t want to do. You deserve someone better, someone who can take care of you guys more, someone who really knows what he or she is doing, and someone who has all the right connections.
I just realized that I might not be cut out for this after all. I feel that I’m not growing here. I’ve put aside my personal growth for the longest time, and I’m afraid I might wake up one morning and be too old for the things I want to do.
This is awfully hard for me, believe it or not. I learned to love you all. But I feel that this is something I have to do. Don’t worry, I promise I’ll stay supportive of the band. I’ll still watch all of your gigs, and I’ll still scream my throat out for you. Sorry and thank you.
Isay
-Nah! Haha. Maybe. Whatever. Confused ako.
I don’t really know where to start. I’ve been with you guys for a little over five months now. We’ve been through a lot, I’ll say. There were fights and there were problems, but we’re still here, aren’t we? I guess those instances are just meant to add a little flavor to this friendship. The ride wouldn’t have been half as interesting if it’s been all good, would it?
As I always do, I have plenty of things to say to you. I’ll start off with an apology. I know I am a heinous bitch, so I’m pretty sure that I’ve hurt you all with the words I say at least once during the time I was with you. It really is my nature to be brutally honest, but I guess everything has limits. I know some comments that came out of my mouth were uncalled for, and again, I’m sorry. One other thing I wish to apologize for is pushing you guys. I guess I just wanted you guys to make the most out of life while you’re young. I have a lot of regrets - things I didn’t try mainly because we couldn’t afford it - and I didn’t want the same thing to happen to you. Although I’m young, I feel so old. But I went overboard, though, so sorry.
But thank you, most especially for bearing with me. More than just a band that I’m managing, you guys have become my friends. I tell you things, you tell me things. Thank you for the conversations, for listening to me, and for letting me listen to what you have to say. It feels good that although you haven’t known me that long, you trust me enough to tell me the things you’ve shared.
Gershwin, thank you for letting me edit your work. You’re a great writer, and I believe that with all my heart. I would love to read more from you. If you ever write that novel, I’d be more than willing to edit it for you. Your writing helped me with mine, actually, so thanks again.
Mathew, thank you for letting me review your work. You’re going to go places with your photography, I’m sure of it. One day, I’m sure I’ll pick up a random book and see that you designed the cover or something. Maybe you could do that for Gershwin’s novel.
Marvie, thank you for the conversations and for the constant accompaniment during gigs, for bearing with me when I’m being more delusional than normal, and for the jokes - you make me smile in the most unusual ways. I appreciate it more than I can say it, really.
Dan, I’ve said this before and I’m going to say it again, you always were the appreciative one, and I thank you for that. You’re one of the forces that kept me sane all this time. Thank you for your openness and your honesty. Your confidence in my so-called management skills kept me afloat, especially at times when I feel like I’m in over my head.
Raymond, thank you for having me manage the group, it was a great experience for me. I know we’ve had our differences, but hey, siblings always had misunderstandings anyway - it’s part of the package, I guess. Thank you for your patience with me, especially when I fall short of expectations, when I don’t do my job as well as I promised. Thank you for this experience, I really learned a lot.
I guess after those things, you already figured out what I’m about to say next - goodbye. I’m leaving Familiar at the end of November. I feel silly, actually, doing this now - I’ve threatened to quit so many times before and yet I stay. Sad to say, I’ve had enough with the empty threats, like you guys, so I’m leaving. I have a lot of reasons; although I have to admit only one of them makes sense to me.
Please don’t think I’m leaving because of something you guys said or did. I’m leaving because of me, because I don’t know how to deal. I don’t think I’m good enough for you guys. You’ll find a better manager, I’m sure, someone who can take you guys places I can’t, someone who isn’t an emotional fuckwit like me, and someone who won’t make you do things you don’t want to do. You deserve someone better, someone who can take care of you guys more, someone who really knows what he or she is doing, and someone who has all the right connections.
I just realized that I might not be cut out for this after all. I feel that I’m not growing here. I’ve put aside my personal growth for the longest time, and I’m afraid I might wake up one morning and be too old for the things I want to do.
This is awfully hard for me, believe it or not. I learned to love you all. But I feel that this is something I have to do. Don’t worry, I promise I’ll stay supportive of the band. I’ll still watch all of your gigs, and I’ll still scream my throat out for you. Sorry and thank you.
Isay
-Nah! Haha. Maybe. Whatever. Confused ako.