Fuuuccckkk
I am so hungry. I am sick and tired of thinking about food. I obsses about food the way someone with an eating disorder does. Maybe I have a kind of eating disorder cause I sure as fuck can't seem to eat like a normal person. What will I eat? will I satify my cravings or be healthy, why, oh why does it feel like my happiness depends on nachos or hagen daz...or eating all raw all day? will my jeans fit looser today since I ate nothing but raw macademia nuts, bannana and grilled salmon yesterday (actually yes) but will I make through today and manage to
a) Drink all my water
b) eat
c) eat like I'm supposed to in moderation without swinging between two extremes, such as nothing but fruit and espresso or...french fries with a side of pizza
I have ten fucking pounds to go...it shouldn't be this hard. Of course the first twenty has taken me almost 6 months. And then what? I get pregnant again!
This, people, is why I need a job, so I can think about something other than food and...well...how much food.
a) Drink all my water
b) eat
c) eat like I'm supposed to in moderation without swinging between two extremes, such as nothing but fruit and espresso or...french fries with a side of pizza
I have ten fucking pounds to go...it shouldn't be this hard. Of course the first twenty has taken me almost 6 months. And then what? I get pregnant again!
This, people, is why I need a job, so I can think about something other than food and...well...how much food.