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Well I was going to write an emotional entry but I deleted the whole damn thing. Why? Becuase it's nonesensical bullshit because I am PMSing and none of it would make sense. Merely loaded (as in loaded with content) language directed at nothing to no purpose without any sense of articulation. What I want right now is a home. Not a home as in a structure with a roof and walls and plumbing but a home. A place where Pierce and I will live together in ownership in a place where I feel relaxed and comfortable. Preferably the Okanagan. I want a lawn with a wild flower garden and maybe a vegetable garden in the back and a small house that needs to be re-done. I want a darkwood kitchen where I can make my tea and a porch in front where I can drink it and read the paper or whatever book I'm reading at the time. I want a room where I can do my artwork and write and read, I want my husband to be happy and doing whatever it is that makes him happy while he works. I want him to be happy at work. I want a little bit of land (later probably after my first house) where I can have a sheep, a goat, chickens and one horse and maybe a couple of dogs. I want a couple of kids although I don't think I'll be able to decide when I want that to happen so I guess I'll just have to decide to get sloppy at some point. In the state that I am in and the current situation in my life, these are the things that I want.