*sigh*
dante's left.
i mean, i know i haven't been very close to her lately...like these last few months, i feel kinda like we were moving apart...we didnt like the same things anymore, and we always ran out of things to say to eachother...we didnt talk as much...she spent more and more time with jessie...not that i blame her, because they were in the same class and everything...but it did hurt when they talked about classic rock bands adn i had no fuckin clue what the hell they were talking about...but thats ok.
I've never really been close to anybody. only a few, adn im glad she was one of them. I was never a conversationalist, i couldnt put myself out there and do things, i hated public things, like public speaking and drama...but i loved to act (in private). i never had that many friends, mainly because of my attitude. the few who could tolerate me...well, let's just say, i cherished them...like dante.
although i didnt spend 4 hours on the phone with her...well, i tried calling, but the phone was busy for, like, 4 hours...(any guesses why?)...but i miss her...i dunno...i just wish i had gotten a chance to say goodbye before she left...obivously she was busy...
I've never really been lucky in my life...i always lost out on the things that were most important to me...like love...and friends...i've kinda learned how to accept these things...my life has been lucky in general, but its the things that affect me evryday that get to me...
I actually remember the first time i saw her. do u remember, dante? during the scholarship interview...i thought she was weird...i thought she looked like a dog...she wore a (*hideous*...im sorry, but it was.) striped shirt and winnie the pooh leggings...needless to say, i thought she wouldnt be getting a scholarship anytime soon...
and then again during "meet the teachers night"...when she admitted that she LOVED....ummm...likED stuart...lol...that was great...she gave me his last name...and then i ran to my locker to get a class list, which she tried to take from me and tear up! but i found out anyways...and who can forget thor? lol...thor...squarehead...cubey...and PETER! we're getting loads of *tapes* of him! *wink wink*...
Maren Ord
Beautiful
If you could open up your eyes And see the colour of my tears They're not that grey, they're not that blue, They're beautiful If you could just see what I see You'd know the world is not that grey And it's not that blue You'd see the world is beautiful if you would chorus Open your eyes, take my hand Take a look at where you stand It's not that hard, just take a step back my friend And see this world We're living in it's beautiful life is beautiful So take that look from off your face I know it's not that easy so tell me Ohhhhh It's not that grey so look at me and chorus It's when I open up my eyes And see the colour of your tears They're not that grey, they're not that blue, no If you could just see what I see you'd know the world is not that grey, it's not that blue You'd see that the world is beautiful
Well, goodluck in texas, filia...i'll never forget u!