ugh.
i miss him so much, i wish i could get him out of my head. i keep wishing that he'd come back to me like last time...but i know its not going to happen. i wonder why i cant just stop loving him, to stop the pain. buti cant help it...i hope hes happier at least..i dont know. i wanna see him so bad but i doubt he wants to see me. i feel so pathetic, why does it have to be so hard? it feels like its been so long but its only been like 5 days i wish i could just stop all of my memories of him flowing into my mind, it hurts so much. i cant believe still how stupid we were, i want him back, i wish everything could go back to the way it was. i want to be happy again.