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Hey. *warning emo content*
I don't know if anyone will actually read this so I guess I'm just talking to myself. But it's good to talk about things right? Lately I've been feeling really down. I've lost all my motivation. Usually I'm doing some kinda of work, be it Uni or me going on one of my mad doing something rampage...but now I just feel like nothing. Have I burnt out? I wanna get back into things but I can't. I've been in my room all day, and that's really not me. Usually I'm up and about hanging with my friends, having a good time, I can't even talk to them properly. Maybe I'm just having a hormonal week. Things with John are shakey...well, we just seem to fall out alot when we're not together. Long distance relationships are hard. REALLY hard. I advise everyone not to bother!! It just runs me down. I know
it doing the same to John. I feel so helpless being so far away from him. I can't help him with his problems when he's 100 miles away!!I should be able to drop everything and go make sure he's ok but I can't and it's so frustrating. Uni is going ok I guess. I'm still kinda behind. I need to get in gear. I've never had something I love so much! I love Animation, I love everthing about it. But it really does suck all your life away. I miss my old life so much. I miss going out and dancing all night! I miss al my old friends from back home who have al;l changed so much. But change will come as it always does...
Gah! I'm being FAR too emo now...I have to stop and slap myself back into gear. I'm going to loose 2 stone for the Derby Uni May Ball, it'll be mine and Johns 0ne year then so I wanna be happy with how I look. I will do it. I have to believe I can or it won't happen!!
Kat xxx
I don't know if anyone will actually read this so I guess I'm just talking to myself. But it's good to talk about things right? Lately I've been feeling really down. I've lost all my motivation. Usually I'm doing some kinda of work, be it Uni or me going on one of my mad doing something rampage...but now I just feel like nothing. Have I burnt out? I wanna get back into things but I can't. I've been in my room all day, and that's really not me. Usually I'm up and about hanging with my friends, having a good time, I can't even talk to them properly. Maybe I'm just having a hormonal week. Things with John are shakey...well, we just seem to fall out alot when we're not together. Long distance relationships are hard. REALLY hard. I advise everyone not to bother!! It just runs me down. I know
it doing the same to John. I feel so helpless being so far away from him. I can't help him with his problems when he's 100 miles away!!I should be able to drop everything and go make sure he's ok but I can't and it's so frustrating. Uni is going ok I guess. I'm still kinda behind. I need to get in gear. I've never had something I love so much! I love Animation, I love everthing about it. But it really does suck all your life away. I miss my old life so much. I miss going out and dancing all night! I miss al my old friends from back home who have al;l changed so much. But change will come as it always does...
Gah! I'm being FAR too emo now...I have to stop and slap myself back into gear. I'm going to loose 2 stone for the Derby Uni May Ball, it'll be mine and Johns 0ne year then so I wanna be happy with how I look. I will do it. I have to believe I can or it won't happen!!
Kat xxx