What am I but to suffer the shackles I have forged for myself.
I am not sure why I am entering this post... but I feel as if I have awakened from a long and deep slumber... as if the past few years I have not been at all myself. I feel that I have neglected my purpose.. that I exist to serve others and that I shall only be truely happy when I do this... but I also feel the sense that I am tameing something of myself that has been for a time wild and free. and so I sit here.... Lost, disconcerted, and morose, knowing this path will doubtless make those I carefor very happy... but wondering if I will truely share in that joy.