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I want to be a stand-up comedian. I want to make people laugh. I really really do.
Laughter is magical. When people laugh, everything awful and wrong goes away. I think laughter is something that breaks all the evil curses placed in the world. It is an antidote to every poison.
To be able to yield laughter would be like being the greatest magician in the world. Too bad I'm so awkward on stage. And I stutter sometimes.
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I finished the Metamorphosis. I think I sort of became jealous of Kafka the Original, though I didn't like Gregor Samsa very much, because he gave up. Sure, I'm lame most of the time, as well, but I try not to give up. I think if Gregor didn't give up living even as a bug, I would've admired him more.
But then, if my sister gave up on me, I would very much be tempted to give up... Still, I like my heroes to be more heroic than me. A hero, even after turning into a bug, should be able to laugh about it, or fight it, or something.
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I think I'm just bullshitting because I'm so jealous of Me version 1.0... It was so good. I had some good dreams after I read it.
Everything he was trying to say is true. We are all bugs - dirty, ugly, immobile, detached, impossible to communicate with - it's just that we don't know it yet. I'm glad that I agree with me.