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I feel like i want to DIE.
I mean, I'm not losing him or anything, but in the physical sense i am... I know we've only been together a few months but it feels like its been forever and i know its will last. For a guy that i hated a year and a half ago, he has become my future. Lets just say I'm hesitant to lose that comfort. I know that anyone reading this may think i am over-reacting like i usually do... Yes, in a sense I very well might be. What's even worse though is that we've madeso many plans for the future and now half of them are gone with this move. We were going o move in together six months from now. Now he has to live with his parents and be truency free for the next six school months... so if we are still going to move in together, it has been pushed back at least 8 months, if not more... He was going to be my savior. He named our kids for lord's sake! and if things still move along the way they have been, we were going to get married. not right after high school, but two years after, before he joins the navy and goes off for four years.
I feel like my heart has been ripped out and stomped on with a high heeled shoe, while its still BEATING.