at 5:53am
so last night as i lay in bed at 9:30pm i became restless. i started thinking about some things again. i thought about...that maybe i was setting myself up for something i wasnt counting on. i was confused again. i hate not knowing what really is going on. i hate to assume things, though it seems when i do it all changes. 0_o i hate it, why can't it just work out the way i think its going too? there are different levels of being alone. i know im not totally alone, i have a few friends, my dad and family and all, but maybe thats not enough. you would think it should be but it doesnt feel like its enough. then again certain things are in the way, not major obsticals but things that make it complicated. it just depends how it works out i guess...well bleh i need to go. school. @_@