the sun still sleeps...
oh
my
fawking
gawd...
i am balling my eyes out, like anyone cares really, but hell i have to write it down! i don't wanna be alone, im sorry please, omg i don't want to be alone, if there is anything i can do please tell me, just please fuck...i dunno i can't do anything, im losing one of the best friends i ever had i can't stop crying, fuck fuck fuck, maybe if i wasnt they way i was..i would have more friends...shit but, i know shes not gone yet but damn i dunno what i am going to do...it hurts, or its just the icky pizza i ate...eh who knows. as you know tiffany is moving...to Salt Lake City, Utah. i thought i would never lose her, these that good of a friend, i mean hell, a perfect friend, sure we have had our evil days and wicked days but we got over it...and now im really sad...and i dunno what to do im a big fuckin baby, im soo tired i dunno what to do, im already slipping in school, shit...i can't sleep, im tired, im fuckin sad, and im tired of just everything...my mom and the rest of the other side of my family is slipping away...im scared now..., i hate the fact that i love people so much that i cannot express it to them.
i need help i can't do it by myself...im not as strong as i thought i was, there you know it now im a big fuckin baby, maybe im beign selfish, i dunno...sometimes i just wanna sleep all the days away, i have the oppertunity to get my license and im not working at it, im slacking in cleaning the house, im slacking in everything. im losing all that confidence i had in me, im drifting back into waht i was, i don't wanna be that person again. i like who i have become over the years. i love the people i have met in the process, what am i going to do with my life? i dunno its getting so close im freaking out...i gotta stop worrying abou it.
on i guess a more odd note, i have been talking to this guy i knows brother, jake, his brother shane, hes pretty funny to talk to, he has the humps for tiffany, i tottally dig his brother beyond anything...really i guess, if you know me then you know what i mean. jake was probably one of the good things that has happend so far...well kinda i guess i mean nothing has happend but it was a good start.
on a better note, my art is excelling, my teacher is pointing it out everyday, i basically kicked my last years ass all over the place, its like...i dunno...though ill admit listening to Atreyu has allot to do with it lol. I told Dan of Atreyu i did my art to it, then we talked about his college art experiences in painting. ahhh memories...
anyways..ill stop complaining, my eyes are drying it kinda stings now...i need a shower.
wow underOATH is pretty damned good...woop.
my
fawking
gawd...
i am balling my eyes out, like anyone cares really, but hell i have to write it down! i don't wanna be alone, im sorry please, omg i don't want to be alone, if there is anything i can do please tell me, just please fuck...i dunno i can't do anything, im losing one of the best friends i ever had i can't stop crying, fuck fuck fuck, maybe if i wasnt they way i was..i would have more friends...shit but, i know shes not gone yet but damn i dunno what i am going to do...it hurts, or its just the icky pizza i ate...eh who knows. as you know tiffany is moving...to Salt Lake City, Utah. i thought i would never lose her, these that good of a friend, i mean hell, a perfect friend, sure we have had our evil days and wicked days but we got over it...and now im really sad...and i dunno what to do im a big fuckin baby, im soo tired i dunno what to do, im already slipping in school, shit...i can't sleep, im tired, im fuckin sad, and im tired of just everything...my mom and the rest of the other side of my family is slipping away...im scared now..., i hate the fact that i love people so much that i cannot express it to them.
i need help i can't do it by myself...im not as strong as i thought i was, there you know it now im a big fuckin baby, maybe im beign selfish, i dunno...sometimes i just wanna sleep all the days away, i have the oppertunity to get my license and im not working at it, im slacking in cleaning the house, im slacking in everything. im losing all that confidence i had in me, im drifting back into waht i was, i don't wanna be that person again. i like who i have become over the years. i love the people i have met in the process, what am i going to do with my life? i dunno its getting so close im freaking out...i gotta stop worrying abou it.
on i guess a more odd note, i have been talking to this guy i knows brother, jake, his brother shane, hes pretty funny to talk to, he has the humps for tiffany, i tottally dig his brother beyond anything...really i guess, if you know me then you know what i mean. jake was probably one of the good things that has happend so far...well kinda i guess i mean nothing has happend but it was a good start.
on a better note, my art is excelling, my teacher is pointing it out everyday, i basically kicked my last years ass all over the place, its like...i dunno...though ill admit listening to Atreyu has allot to do with it lol. I told Dan of Atreyu i did my art to it, then we talked about his college art experiences in painting. ahhh memories...
anyways..ill stop complaining, my eyes are drying it kinda stings now...i need a shower.
wow underOATH is pretty damned good...woop.