Was my request so great?
I dunno hah, I am in doubt once again. I have the right number. But I am afraid to call. He loves me, but I stop...say nothing...tears well up. AM I A FREAK? Oh I dunno. Friends are not in an abundance with me. I choose quality over quantity. But when you go home, who do you have to hug, kiss and even make out with? (hah couldn't resist) What kind of love is the kind you would give anything to just be in their arms cause you would feel...better, complete, not lonely....to just see them...would do more damage than good. Ahh to feel the warmth of someone you did not grow up knowing and loving, to have someone new just come into you life and you create feelings. It is kinda a amazing process. I am either stupid...or there is a tiny gut feeling that things will work and it won't let go...because I would regret it in the end. I shall not be alone...not this time. No, not this time.
Some songs...Poison the Well always makes for angry love ballads, along with some Atreyu.
"Grain of Salt"
Another day passes by.
Another attempt at love.
Remains unrequited.
Why do I even bother?
I should have learned from the past.
I am but a statue.
Impervious to love.
This punctured heart is mine.
Becomes a handful of dust. Dust.
Hope has now wilted away.
Wilted. Along with these dreams.
That became emptiness.
A final exit becomes clear.
I am self destructive. A
product of this solitude.
I am riddled with shards.
One simple wish now dies.
Was my request so great?
One simple wish now dies [x3].
Was my request so great?
Once again I drown in its denial. W
as it so complicated?
Once again. I've been. Spit upon.
Taken with a grain of salt. My life is gone.
--
"Nerdy"
Why do your eyes paralyze me
What makes me feel this way
Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats
As rapid thinking about your embrace
and how it makes me feel
I just want to feel this way forever
Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you
Why have I been given the chance to fly
When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone
I remember your face / imprinted on angels
Your voice as beautiful / as the sounds of waves
crashing against my heart
Time slows down when you look at me
I'm infatuated with this / infatuated with you
It's so hard for me to understand why
I hadn't found you before don't dull away
hold my hand
--
"Slice Paper Wrists"
When you read this / I will not be the same
I have let my true form show
this is my last / lost in all my guilt
for letting you fall / understand it wasn't me
but I can't dream without showing intentions
as I ask these questions / where were you
now I can't see through your eyes
I remember the day the sun went out
It halted all progression with all its beauty
it just sacrificed / we fell apart
Sincerely yours I've disowned you [x3]
Sincerely yours I've disowned us
<3
Some songs...Poison the Well always makes for angry love ballads, along with some Atreyu.
"Grain of Salt"
Another day passes by.
Another attempt at love.
Remains unrequited.
Why do I even bother?
I should have learned from the past.
I am but a statue.
Impervious to love.
This punctured heart is mine.
Becomes a handful of dust. Dust.
Hope has now wilted away.
Wilted. Along with these dreams.
That became emptiness.
A final exit becomes clear.
I am self destructive. A
product of this solitude.
I am riddled with shards.
One simple wish now dies.
Was my request so great?
One simple wish now dies [x3].
Was my request so great?
Once again I drown in its denial. W
as it so complicated?
Once again. I've been. Spit upon.
Taken with a grain of salt. My life is gone.
--
"Nerdy"
Why do your eyes paralyze me
What makes me feel this way
Just carry me away with silence and heartbeats
As rapid thinking about your embrace
and how it makes me feel
I just want to feel this way forever
Sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you
Why have I been given the chance to fly
When I'm not with you I feel lesser alone
I remember your face / imprinted on angels
Your voice as beautiful / as the sounds of waves
crashing against my heart
Time slows down when you look at me
I'm infatuated with this / infatuated with you
It's so hard for me to understand why
I hadn't found you before don't dull away
hold my hand
--
"Slice Paper Wrists"
When you read this / I will not be the same
I have let my true form show
this is my last / lost in all my guilt
for letting you fall / understand it wasn't me
but I can't dream without showing intentions
as I ask these questions / where were you
now I can't see through your eyes
I remember the day the sun went out
It halted all progression with all its beauty
it just sacrificed / we fell apart
Sincerely yours I've disowned you [x3]
Sincerely yours I've disowned us
<3