R.E.DRE.DR.EDRE....RED!
Disclaimer: I'm about to do some hard core whining here, so be warned.
So this morning I had a skype chat with one of my best friends, Morgan. She also happens to be the very first person I ever met at Lochearn. And you know what she told me?
She's going back to camp.
My heart is breaking right now. Not because I don't want her to go back, I'm so excited and happy for her that she's doing this, but because I want to go back so badly it literally makes my heart hurt.
Money is the only thing stopping me, and I hate that it's such a big thing. The truth is, there's just not that much money in being a camp counselor. Last summer (my first summer off of camp since I started there) I made almost double what I made at camp. And with graduation looming in almost exactly a year and the uncertainty that brings with it, I feel like I need to bank as much as possible.
UGH! This is so frustrating because my heart has been at Lochearn since March and now all my friends are going back, but deep down in the deapths of my soul I know that I can't. And part of me also remembers how frustrated I was at the end of my last summer and how ready I was to be done. But I also really, really love Lochearn and all the people there.
I'm just SO torn!!!!
*Okay, whining over. I just needed a place to get that out for a second, now I'm done.
So this morning I had a skype chat with one of my best friends, Morgan. She also happens to be the very first person I ever met at Lochearn. And you know what she told me?
She's going back to camp.
My heart is breaking right now. Not because I don't want her to go back, I'm so excited and happy for her that she's doing this, but because I want to go back so badly it literally makes my heart hurt.
Money is the only thing stopping me, and I hate that it's such a big thing. The truth is, there's just not that much money in being a camp counselor. Last summer (my first summer off of camp since I started there) I made almost double what I made at camp. And with graduation looming in almost exactly a year and the uncertainty that brings with it, I feel like I need to bank as much as possible.
UGH! This is so frustrating because my heart has been at Lochearn since March and now all my friends are going back, but deep down in the deapths of my soul I know that I can't. And part of me also remembers how frustrated I was at the end of my last summer and how ready I was to be done. But I also really, really love Lochearn and all the people there.
I'm just SO torn!!!!
*Okay, whining over. I just needed a place to get that out for a second, now I'm done.