Today
Today was originally going to be a good day, I thought. My first business appointment is today. No guarantees, but God, it feels GOOD to finally be getting my business started.
The the floor fell out from under me.
That's probobly too melodromatic. I t wasn't me a floor fell out from under, but I feel like I'm at the edge, trying to grab on to her, desperate to catch her before she falls. Someone who I care about to the level of insanity is hurting today. We hurt each other before. I was hurt like nothing I had ever known. But I'd do it all over again if it meant I could relieve her of the hurt she must be feeling now. And what I hate is that I can't do that. All I can do is try to be there for her, but she's 400 miles away, leaving nothing but internet and phone to work with, and even then, she has to accept me being there for her for the equation to work.
I had once thought I had been put on this world to help people. And I feel like that has been robbed from me, because I can't even help someone I truly love. And I feel angry for it.
Kaelin
The the floor fell out from under me.
That's probobly too melodromatic. I t wasn't me a floor fell out from under, but I feel like I'm at the edge, trying to grab on to her, desperate to catch her before she falls. Someone who I care about to the level of insanity is hurting today. We hurt each other before. I was hurt like nothing I had ever known. But I'd do it all over again if it meant I could relieve her of the hurt she must be feeling now. And what I hate is that I can't do that. All I can do is try to be there for her, but she's 400 miles away, leaving nothing but internet and phone to work with, and even then, she has to accept me being there for her for the equation to work.
I had once thought I had been put on this world to help people. And I feel like that has been robbed from me, because I can't even help someone I truly love. And I feel angry for it.
Kaelin