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So last night I had a great time. Went to see Showgirls with Zach and Mark, and it was actually GOOD this time! I may go more, especially since I know now that the guy who works the door will let me in for free.
After that, we went to A-House and had a great time. All in all, it was fun... the worst part about it was that Zach and Mark had to go home this morning, and so they're gone now. I was a little dramatic in my goodbyes, lol... but I was really sad to see them go. I didn't come close to crying though, if that's what you all are wanting to know!
Oddly enough, I found myself with a burgeoning crush on Zach. Don't ask me why, I've only seen him three times in my life. But he's just very well put together. Intelligent, goal-oriented, witty, hot, and a drop dead gorgeous body... I mean, omg, lol. And oddly enough, as I had to explain to my friend JP a ton of times, I did not want to have sex with him. I think I could've... there were a few opportunities to at least make out. But I just liked being near him. If I were to end up in bed with him, I think I'd just want to cuddle. *shrug*
But Mark and Zach are gone now... so it's just me again, and the apathy is back in full force. I know people around town, but I really don't care much about them. Not enough to really hang out with them, anyway. It's nothing against them. They're the same people I've always loved, or if I've just met them, they have the same types of temperament and personality that I can enjoy. It's just me. I can't bring myself to care. I'd rather work around the guest house than go out. The E! Network is more appealing to me than sex.
I dunno... I'm starting to worry that, because of events that happened in the not too distant past, something inside of me has just shriveled up and died.
After that, we went to A-House and had a great time. All in all, it was fun... the worst part about it was that Zach and Mark had to go home this morning, and so they're gone now. I was a little dramatic in my goodbyes, lol... but I was really sad to see them go. I didn't come close to crying though, if that's what you all are wanting to know!
Oddly enough, I found myself with a burgeoning crush on Zach. Don't ask me why, I've only seen him three times in my life. But he's just very well put together. Intelligent, goal-oriented, witty, hot, and a drop dead gorgeous body... I mean, omg, lol. And oddly enough, as I had to explain to my friend JP a ton of times, I did not want to have sex with him. I think I could've... there were a few opportunities to at least make out. But I just liked being near him. If I were to end up in bed with him, I think I'd just want to cuddle. *shrug*
But Mark and Zach are gone now... so it's just me again, and the apathy is back in full force. I know people around town, but I really don't care much about them. Not enough to really hang out with them, anyway. It's nothing against them. They're the same people I've always loved, or if I've just met them, they have the same types of temperament and personality that I can enjoy. It's just me. I can't bring myself to care. I'd rather work around the guest house than go out. The E! Network is more appealing to me than sex.
I dunno... I'm starting to worry that, because of events that happened in the not too distant past, something inside of me has just shriveled up and died.