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Hmmm....
I don't always understand my own personality. Its like, sometimes I can be such a little kid....and others I'm way too mature for my age, which happens more often, and may be the more frustrating of the two. I was talking to a girl the same age as me the other day and ended up having to give her a ton of advice, and it was weird....*shrugs* oh well.
Moving people in really sucks...yeah I know I always complain about it...but I've moved soooo many people these past few months.
I really...just....agh I need to leave. Its so sad that I just don't get along with my mom anymore. I think its because all of a sudden, for some reason I can't fathom with any portion of my mind, she doesn't trust me anymore, which so thoroughly upsets me that I almost want to give her a reason not to. Its really pretty ridiculous the things she gets mad at me for, like she thinks that I'm off smoking weed and having sex or something, which I'm NOT. I've never done anything to deserve the way she's been acting....and I just feel stuck because I can't say anything or she'll just get pissed at me. *sigh* Part of the reason we don't get along too, is because I'm a lot like steve, and I think that scares her...a lot. She doesnt know how to deal with another one, especially not a girl hahaha. But I'm really a lot different from him, even though we have some similar personality traits. I'm not nearly as combative as him though, I tend to just back off and go vent my anger by myself. Which I do...a lot. Erin and I were talking tonight and I realized, that I have a TERRIBLE temper. I get SO angry about things EVERY day but I don't let on..I'm afriad sometime I might just have a meltdown and pitch a fit at everyone. Whoever I do that to, I apologize in advance, because it will be ghastly.....
but really the situation with my mom and I needs to be changed, because the tension is driving me insane. I need out...but I can't leave. WHY am I not older. *frustrated*
For the first time tonight I pondered just cramming two yearsinto next year...and going to college when I'm seventeen. I don't know if I can handle the workload...btu I might try because waiting until I'm eighteen is starting to scare the hell out of me.
Okay..done pondering/venting.
I don't always understand my own personality. Its like, sometimes I can be such a little kid....and others I'm way too mature for my age, which happens more often, and may be the more frustrating of the two. I was talking to a girl the same age as me the other day and ended up having to give her a ton of advice, and it was weird....*shrugs* oh well.
Moving people in really sucks...yeah I know I always complain about it...but I've moved soooo many people these past few months.
I really...just....agh I need to leave. Its so sad that I just don't get along with my mom anymore. I think its because all of a sudden, for some reason I can't fathom with any portion of my mind, she doesn't trust me anymore, which so thoroughly upsets me that I almost want to give her a reason not to. Its really pretty ridiculous the things she gets mad at me for, like she thinks that I'm off smoking weed and having sex or something, which I'm NOT. I've never done anything to deserve the way she's been acting....and I just feel stuck because I can't say anything or she'll just get pissed at me. *sigh* Part of the reason we don't get along too, is because I'm a lot like steve, and I think that scares her...a lot. She doesnt know how to deal with another one, especially not a girl hahaha. But I'm really a lot different from him, even though we have some similar personality traits. I'm not nearly as combative as him though, I tend to just back off and go vent my anger by myself. Which I do...a lot. Erin and I were talking tonight and I realized, that I have a TERRIBLE temper. I get SO angry about things EVERY day but I don't let on..I'm afriad sometime I might just have a meltdown and pitch a fit at everyone. Whoever I do that to, I apologize in advance, because it will be ghastly.....
but really the situation with my mom and I needs to be changed, because the tension is driving me insane. I need out...but I can't leave. WHY am I not older. *frustrated*
For the first time tonight I pondered just cramming two yearsinto next year...and going to college when I'm seventeen. I don't know if I can handle the workload...btu I might try because waiting until I'm eighteen is starting to scare the hell out of me.
Okay..done pondering/venting.