Just another Monday

[kaelaorwick]

I haven't wrote in a while just haven't felt like it i guess not much really to talk about. I quit Track cause i just wanted the break...i need time off i'm soooo burnt out from everything...school, sports all of it. I can't wait tell Spring Break.....i can go and do w/e i want and don't have to worry about school. Things have been going kinda crazy....i told Jeremy all of the truth about what happened and he doesn't believe me....i can kinda understand but i keep telling him the truth and then ppl go and say that is isn't true well it is...everything i have told Jeremy about that nite is true. Me and Jeremy went out to eat Friday nite and it was great i had so much fun just being with him...then we went and drove around for awhile then we rented 2 movies and went back to my dads house. Well we kinda of got into a fight cause ppl kept calling and telling him shit that is true....and he thought i was lieing to him and i wasn't i have told him all the truth. Then we were ok after that and the nite ended good.....Saturday we talked a lil bit and he was suppose to come to Laura's with me but i could not get a hold of him after Jr Prom and i heard he went out to Jenna's so idk...and then Sunday we didn't talk at all so idk what is going on......I wish he would believe me and i know it is goin got be hard cause i know what i did was realllllllllllllllllllllly BAD but i just wish that he would believe me cause i'm not lieing to him......i mean that would be stupid....i want to make it better not worse. so i'm not going to lie about anything. I feel horrible for what i did ............but i do really care about Jeremy and i just wish me and him could work everything out and it would all be cool again...i know its going to take time and i understand and i'm willing to take the time.

This weekend at Laura's was fun all of us just sitting around the fire...SOBER it was nice...and eating all nite....it was really fun and i'm glad i got to go. I just wish Jeremy would have been there. Sunday i didn't do much i just layed around the house my mom and dad were not home so i took advantage of it and didn't do anything...
luv ya
Kaela