im so disappointed....
im not playing basketball anymore. i feel like it monopolizes all my time and i feel like i should be doing something else. i dont know what that something else is, but i cant waste my time on something im not gunna put 100% into-its not fair to my team. its not like im doing nothing-im in ophilia, a few clubs at school and the stage crew for grase (yay!) and if i wanna play basketball ill do it when i want to. if i dont wanna play and im on the team i have to because i made a committment to my team(thats what im talking about with the 100% in it thing) i dont know what to do now because my brothers telling me how he did the same thing in highschool and he regrets it everyday of his life blah blah, and he got me scared. i love basketball-dont get my wrong..but im just not as passionate about it as i used to be. this is such a big deal for me and no one seems to understand that...everyone just gives me a "do whatever you want meg...its up to you" i know that but I NEED ADVICEEE!!!!! please post<3
so last night i had a dream: i was sitting in a church with my mom and my aunt terry walks in with my little cousins scotty and goes "what, you go to church and dont invite scotty?" and then walks away. then my aunt gail, cate and sarah came in and as we were walking out of church me and my cousins started singing (to the tune of "When the saints coem marching in") i have to pee...i have to pee...and my couins were like harmonizing with me it was weird. then as we were walking out of church i see my grandma and grandpa(who died of polio-a leg disease from way back when)pull up in a gold car. my grandpa was driving and i smiled and walked up to the window and i gave him a hug and i could feel his skin against my cheek and i woke up histerical crying and i looked next to me and i saw him. like he was standing there. my grandpa died when i was 5. i swear to god he was next to me. and i always see this little girl in my house too. why do i see dead people? im still upset about this = (
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so last night i had a dream: i was sitting in a church with my mom and my aunt terry walks in with my little cousins scotty and goes "what, you go to church and dont invite scotty?" and then walks away. then my aunt gail, cate and sarah came in and as we were walking out of church me and my cousins started singing (to the tune of "When the saints coem marching in") i have to pee...i have to pee...and my couins were like harmonizing with me it was weird. then as we were walking out of church i see my grandma and grandpa(who died of polio-a leg disease from way back when)pull up in a gold car. my grandpa was driving and i smiled and walked up to the window and i gave him a hug and i could feel his skin against my cheek and i woke up histerical crying and i looked next to me and i saw him. like he was standing there. my grandpa died when i was 5. i swear to god he was next to me. and i always see this little girl in my house too. why do i see dead people? im still upset about this = (
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