Down....
I was supposed to meet my father a few days ago. He kept on promising that he'll meet me and my sister but later on calls up and said that he couldn't make it. The thing is this happens a lot. And like a big idiot I always believe that he will come to us. Well...sometimes he does but most of the time he doesn't. Today it happen again. I stood there waiting for him for like 3 hours and he didn't show. Then he called and said he couldn't make it because of some stupid reason. This is the relationship I have with my father for the past 10 years. In our culture, even though a husband split up with his wife, he stills has responsibility on his children, providing everything for them like money, education etc.
I try to make a mends with him. Wanting so much to respect him and love him but with him keep doing this, it's really hard. He didn't offer the stability for me and my sister. Always coming and going. I think that's one of the reason that I'm afraid to get married. I've seen a lot of example in front of me. My own family, my relatives. I know I shouldn't be saying this but I couldn't help it. Still praying and wishing for him to change. That's all I ask.
I try to make a mends with him. Wanting so much to respect him and love him but with him keep doing this, it's really hard. He didn't offer the stability for me and my sister. Always coming and going. I think that's one of the reason that I'm afraid to get married. I've seen a lot of example in front of me. My own family, my relatives. I know I shouldn't be saying this but I couldn't help it. Still praying and wishing for him to change. That's all I ask.