WelL let me start this update out by tellin everyone AGAIN that me and brian are broke up.. and well he broke up with me this time and ya know what im really 0kay with it.. but let me tell ya h0w my weekend went s0 far.
friday - well i headed t0 scho0l , n0thing to important there acourse haha.. and well later after scho0l me and morgan headed to n0rton wal-mart and had a little bit of fun in there which that fat ass bitch we ran int0 just l0ves to start trouble ugh!. haha but after we left we headed back t0 morgans house and talked t0 kP and we all decided to have a girls night out.. which i really Needed.. so we g0t ready and then kp and heather came in & got us and outside i was shawnee danii darcie haha. . well we rode up to the Hs and talked to ethan cedric malcom and alL 0f em.. then we headed t0 shannons to eat and saw jessee luke paige and micah aww.. well some girls walked inn and started runnin their mouths haha we had fun with that th0.. espically me lol, well after we left shannons me kp heather and m0rgan headed over t0 the murphy..which i really didnt wanna g0 cause me and brian was still fighten and i didnt wanna see his fuckin ass that night but i went with my girl kp cause shes fuckin luckier then hell haha and im glad she g0t to go through that experience.. woahhh buddy i love yah girl ;). haha anways we all went to seans room and brent came lol.. hes so funny and we waited on joe and sean to get back form wherever they were at.. and well brian blessed me out in front of everyone again haha i think he just loves to do that, but he was drinkin acourse... and well when they got back we went outside and they built a fire and we all jsut sat around it and talked about listened to music.. haha and well the more brian drank the more i wanted to punch him in his goddamn face..uGhh!..and when i looked at him i noticed something i never noticed before..and im glad i realized it, well pam came and got me and morgan and we went back to her house , talked t0 otis trev and Thomas.. and ohh yeahh thomas now understands that he should trust me in what i say instead of that little freshman ..haha, yeah so me and tom are cool now.. haha, anways we went to bed at about 1 or s0.
Saturday - well we had t0 get up extra early cause morgan was goin to knoxville :( and so we all left her house at about 9L30 i guess and they t0ok me home i tried to go back to bed but i couldnt ..so i just talked on the computer and then took a sh0wer and got ready to head 0ver to k-t0wn with the rents.. cause i needed a few clothes for the pageant thing too.. well at about 1 something i called brian to come over and get his favorite hat that i found that he left here and i didnt want it cause after all the times we broke up i finally packed up all of his shit.. im done this time i really am..so he came and got it and left..then at about 2 i headed over to texas rode house.. that was the first time ive been over there with just my parents in seriously like f0rever haha.. and well we went t0 the mall i got a few cl0thes and went and saw some gay ass movie the "dreamer" that my dad wanted to see that i might add haha.. yeahh kinda weird, but after the movie i ran into shawnee heather and darcie and talked t0 them and well i found out some enteresting things.. called brian and told him to leave me the fuck alone and that im through with him.. he can have that fuckin bitch f0r all i care.. and well i g0t home and andy called me awwwww.... =) all smiles on that one.. he came up on TIME and was bein really sweet.. we watched a couple of movies and talked about everything.. hes really easy to talk to and hes fun to be ar0und i missed him ;). and im glad i listend to my heart instead of my head.. well he left around 12 something i guess.. i didnt want him to leave... but nooo were n0t talkin or anything, and if brian wants to hang out with other people then so can I, he dont care & i honestly dont think he ever did so after last night i stopped caring about everything.. him, his ways, and what he wants.. fuck waitin on him.. its time f0r these 10 months to just be f0rgotten.. hes hurt me bad this time and im not takin him back let me repeat IM NOT! takin him back.. hes not changed not one fuckin bit and i dont have to take it anymore let him PUSH around an0ther girl.. this has gotten so fuckin old and im d0ne with it.. no more holdin on..he knows that i loved him and how i felt about him.. but have you ever been in a situation were all you ever are anymore was confused and heartbroken over someone that you know you shouldnt be but you are cause you gave him everything... yeah i did, he wont ever find anyone that loved him as much as i did... i gave him something that i cant take back.. and he didnt even appreciate it, fuck it im moving on this time and i aint lookin back either.. he made this damn mistake and this time he cant fix it...
sunday -well t0day started out boring and honestly i think its goin to stay that way haha.. i got up ate s0me breakfast and headed downstairs to watch movies and well thats all ive done all day and im pretty sure i wont be doin anthing else haha.. so0 today if ANYONE wants t0 do anything just msg 0r calL me. im free =) ..
weLl thats all f0r n0w.. every0ne betTer leave me a c0mment..` l0ve you alL <3
You say you want to talk
so lets talk
you're the one that messed things up
I have nothing else to say except
you won't find anyone who treated you as good as I did.
Im sure that your glad now that your free, No more holding back just cause of me.
Sometimes you just gotta figure, if he doesn't care, you're missing out on someone that does