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[kadykins]

mmhmm i have never wanted something so bad right now.. to know that i cant have it makes me want it even more..and to know that people don't want me to have makes me long for it... just the touch the sound the smell of it is what i need! ive never been so miserable today with going without it...... nothing has made me blush, smile, have butterflies

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whatever makes you happy

[igotskill]

It's kinda ironic because the way that you feel about "him" was the way that i felt about you, everytime i gave you a hug i got butterflies in my stomach, everytime someone mentioned your name i couldn't stop my face from turning beat red, and that night we watched that movie at laurens house and i held you in my arms, i can still remeber the way you smelled that night, i never wanted that night to end. And since that night all i could think of was you and all I wanted to do was be with you, every minute i was away from you felt like an hour and every hour felt like a day. I was so afraid to begin to have fellings for you because the last girl that i really liked screwed me over. So i was very careful to open my heart up to you because i didn't want to be hurt agian, but i figured it was ok because everyone told me that you liked me, i guess you had them all fooled( including me). How come everytime i open myself up to someone they screw me over, and why can't i find a girl that actualy likes me, seriosly what the hells wrong with me. I liked you so much and you threw it all away like it was nothing. Like you your livejournal says " treat your love like a firefly", i guess i wasn't
"your love" but you were mine and i let you get away. This will posibly be the last thing that i write in livejournal since the only reason that i had a ivejournal was so i could talk to you.

I think i'll go kill myself because you told me i should today at school