My wish came true....
I got exactly what I asked for, something to take my mind off of Joey. But it's not exactly what I had in mind. Now when I'm not worrying about Joey and his dad and family (which i hardly ever stop thinking about), i'm worrying about my best friend. I'm even more angry that's there's nothing I can do to make either one of them feel better. I'd rather me feel all the pain and have them feel none at all. Nevertheless, I'm still crying & I bet it will only get worse when I see Joey. I honestly think that Joey's dad is gonna be okay. I think he's gonna recover just fine from the surgery or whatever it is they decide to do to him. But right now I'm still scared & I know that Joey feels so much worse and that makes me upset. I dont understand why I can't control these tears when I KNOW that everything's gonna be okay. so i dont know what else to do except to let them fall. i hope i'm okay at work tomorrow...maybe i can get it all out tonight.