i'm holding out this time cuz i figured that i, i just might make it.
the way i see it, i have 2 choices. i could continue living the way i have been for the past year or so, through my emotions, which would mean i'm sad right now & i'm not gonna make an effort to do anything just b/c i dont feel like it. or i could put all that to the side for right now and get myself out of this. and i guess there's that third option, but i wont even go there. i dont really have words for the way i feel right now. i definitely feel alone. like everyone's given up on me. even myself. i cant blame anyone. anyways~i'm goin to bed now. i'm not allowed to be on my computer or phone after 10pm. that's lame, but whatever. i guess it's for my own good. hopefully i'll wake up w/ an answer for myself