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Hello everyone! missed me?
I thought so... Well, appart from twitter posts (which I might delete because I find'em a little bit annoying...) it's been more than a month since the last time I updated. Felt like years... it's weird, seems like I lost the need of writing, haven't even write on my personal journal, I mean PAPER journal, and it is not that life's been boring the last months, au contraire.
I'ts been 4 months since we moved to Toluca and it's been bittersweet. Mostly pro's I think, and obvious basic con's. Life has changed a lot, in april it's going to be one year since I left my dad's house, but not of being independent, 'cause I was supported by Mom Silvia, she take cared of us so well, and now... I felt it was like an enooooooooooooormous step to take, I was afraid, I admit, but it tasted sweet once I decided to enjoy rather than suffer the transition. Now that we are in our own apartment everything feels great.
About the job... well, yeah, I had two emergency jobs, never thought I'd be a waitress at a night club, I confess, but I still think it was an amazing experience, won a couple of friends and a story to tell. Not to mention the fun I had at times. And the current job... I think I'm proving myself I can do ANYthing I want, I'm better than I thougut for this, in my first month I caused an excellent impression to the manager and the general directior, so I'm doing great, work environment is light and quite fun, I like most of my work mates and clients... I think I can grow here.
Personal stuff is black and white too, the "married life" is not that easy but we're doing great there too, we're immature at times but then laugh at it and go on. But there was some other stuff that is not completely solved yet, had a misunderstanding with people I considered my siblings and now are barely speaking to me, don't know how to take that, Denisse tells me everything's fine, things will be fixed; Rini says I did what I could and the rest depends on them... I think everything depends on me, but don't know what else I can do. Already explained myself, understood their point and agreed on fixing what I could. Now what? I can't do aything but apologize and do better the next time, nothing I do now will change the past and I can't make them forgive or forget what happened, only they can. So what do I do? Honestly, being in this city makes me feel lonely at times, I miss them and miss tons of things I did back at Mexico City, is not so easy, this is the time when I need them the most, and unfortunately, it seem they don't give a damn or at least they're not interested, they're simply not there. I guess, this is the time when you know who have been there all the way and who won't be anymore. It is so sad. To know there are so few true friends who stick to you and stand for you no matter what. But well... I'll thank for every one of them, here or not.
And, finally... I've been considering on moving this blog somewhere else OR make it absolutely personal blog and start a randomness and stuff blog on wordpress... already had an account there, back to 2007 when I opened it for a school practice. Opinions?
I missed you guys (:
P.s. I'm depressed because I didn't attended ANY gigs this year. NOT ONE. And it is not a lack of shows, just lack of money ¬¬' DAMMIT!
I thought so... Well, appart from twitter posts (which I might delete because I find'em a little bit annoying...) it's been more than a month since the last time I updated. Felt like years... it's weird, seems like I lost the need of writing, haven't even write on my personal journal, I mean PAPER journal, and it is not that life's been boring the last months, au contraire.
I'ts been 4 months since we moved to Toluca and it's been bittersweet. Mostly pro's I think, and obvious basic con's. Life has changed a lot, in april it's going to be one year since I left my dad's house, but not of being independent, 'cause I was supported by Mom Silvia, she take cared of us so well, and now... I felt it was like an enooooooooooooormous step to take, I was afraid, I admit, but it tasted sweet once I decided to enjoy rather than suffer the transition. Now that we are in our own apartment everything feels great.
About the job... well, yeah, I had two emergency jobs, never thought I'd be a waitress at a night club, I confess, but I still think it was an amazing experience, won a couple of friends and a story to tell. Not to mention the fun I had at times. And the current job... I think I'm proving myself I can do ANYthing I want, I'm better than I thougut for this, in my first month I caused an excellent impression to the manager and the general directior, so I'm doing great, work environment is light and quite fun, I like most of my work mates and clients... I think I can grow here.
Personal stuff is black and white too, the "married life" is not that easy but we're doing great there too, we're immature at times but then laugh at it and go on. But there was some other stuff that is not completely solved yet, had a misunderstanding with people I considered my siblings and now are barely speaking to me, don't know how to take that, Denisse tells me everything's fine, things will be fixed; Rini says I did what I could and the rest depends on them... I think everything depends on me, but don't know what else I can do. Already explained myself, understood their point and agreed on fixing what I could. Now what? I can't do aything but apologize and do better the next time, nothing I do now will change the past and I can't make them forgive or forget what happened, only they can. So what do I do? Honestly, being in this city makes me feel lonely at times, I miss them and miss tons of things I did back at Mexico City, is not so easy, this is the time when I need them the most, and unfortunately, it seem they don't give a damn or at least they're not interested, they're simply not there. I guess, this is the time when you know who have been there all the way and who won't be anymore. It is so sad. To know there are so few true friends who stick to you and stand for you no matter what. But well... I'll thank for every one of them, here or not.
And, finally... I've been considering on moving this blog somewhere else OR make it absolutely personal blog and start a randomness and stuff blog on wordpress... already had an account there, back to 2007 when I opened it for a school practice. Opinions?
I missed you guys (:
P.s. I'm depressed because I didn't attended ANY gigs this year. NOT ONE. And it is not a lack of shows, just lack of money ¬¬' DAMMIT!