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Another week or so has passed by and Livejournal has yet again slipped my mind. This week is turning out to be more stressful than I expected and am showing signs of stress through frustration. I hope no one is feeling the backlash of this. I, like everyone else, have my moments and just need to be alone and yell obscenities at the world. Luckily I don't often feel so restless, but with school and homework I need a break.
Thankfully I will be getting a break this weekend when I head up to Toronto. My dad will be flying in and we will drive together to meet the rest of the family in the home of Degrassi. I can't wait to see everyone and be in a non-academic enviornment. While my dad is at meetings all day for the Polk Family Foundation, I hope to be touring Toronoto and all it has to offer. I think we are even getting a tour of one of the museums. Kinky.
My sickness is dwindling down and have gotten back into the routine of taking Nyquil when I don't really need it. Luckily I bought the small bottle so once I run out, I run out.
Fall has officially come but the temperatures aren't showing it. 85 degrees is hell to a person who enjoys crisp fall weather. 55-60 degrees is perfect. Sometimes I wish I could live in a bubble year round where the whole town is at a constant 55 degrees and crisp.
this past weekend i went on a drunken rant about how frustrated i am when it comes to my romantic life. and while i may have been drunk/slap happy, everything i said was true. it's frustrating to be in a position with so little options and so little to work from. and while i shouldn't be complaining about something like this, a lot of the time i feel the right to do so. so what if i'm picky? i'd rather be alone than "taken" and miserable. but either way it doesn't seem ideal. i don't want to need a "radar" system in order to find a mate, and i don't want to have to ask around in order to find out. sometimes i wish i wasn't such a coward, maybe that would make things easier. or maybe i have to get out of this small town and move somewhere with more options, like chicago or new york or seattle. i just hope my future won't be so frustrating and futile. it seems that for the past 7 years i've always been looking to the future for answers and rationalizing the way i am. "it will happen with time," "when i go to college it will be better" and now "when I move to a big city on my own, i will finally find what i'm looking for". who really knows.
otherwise life is kopesetic and really great. i just need to buckle down and work for now.
Thankfully I will be getting a break this weekend when I head up to Toronto. My dad will be flying in and we will drive together to meet the rest of the family in the home of Degrassi. I can't wait to see everyone and be in a non-academic enviornment. While my dad is at meetings all day for the Polk Family Foundation, I hope to be touring Toronoto and all it has to offer. I think we are even getting a tour of one of the museums. Kinky.
My sickness is dwindling down and have gotten back into the routine of taking Nyquil when I don't really need it. Luckily I bought the small bottle so once I run out, I run out.
Fall has officially come but the temperatures aren't showing it. 85 degrees is hell to a person who enjoys crisp fall weather. 55-60 degrees is perfect. Sometimes I wish I could live in a bubble year round where the whole town is at a constant 55 degrees and crisp.
this past weekend i went on a drunken rant about how frustrated i am when it comes to my romantic life. and while i may have been drunk/slap happy, everything i said was true. it's frustrating to be in a position with so little options and so little to work from. and while i shouldn't be complaining about something like this, a lot of the time i feel the right to do so. so what if i'm picky? i'd rather be alone than "taken" and miserable. but either way it doesn't seem ideal. i don't want to need a "radar" system in order to find a mate, and i don't want to have to ask around in order to find out. sometimes i wish i wasn't such a coward, maybe that would make things easier. or maybe i have to get out of this small town and move somewhere with more options, like chicago or new york or seattle. i just hope my future won't be so frustrating and futile. it seems that for the past 7 years i've always been looking to the future for answers and rationalizing the way i am. "it will happen with time," "when i go to college it will be better" and now "when I move to a big city on my own, i will finally find what i'm looking for". who really knows.
otherwise life is kopesetic and really great. i just need to buckle down and work for now.