It's Been a While
It's been a while since I have had the time to sit and post on my own journal and reply to all of yours. I am sorry. With summer right around the corner, I find that my time is extremely limited. Much has changed for me recently. With the aftermath of MayParty(tm) comes the cleaning and in my haste, there was much that was unintentionally left undone.
I have a weekend trip planned for the 7th and 8th which I am looking forward to very much. On the 8th, I have to make sure I arrive home in time to meet my parents. I am really looking forward to seeing them. I only get to see them twice a year and this visit is being cut short.
Also, with fall quickly approaching comes a few other major changes. Hunter starts kindergarten this fall. I am not one of those parents that is sitting here weeping, crying things like, "Ooh, my baby is growing up too fast!" What I am doing is getting excited. My baby is is going to kindergarten!!! I mean, how cool is that?! It isn't something to cry about, it's something to get happy and excited about.
Also, when school starts for me in the fall, there is going to be a big shock. I am going from 3 credit hours to 13 credit hours. I know 13 isn't a lot, but I am still nervous. I have three classes on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Those days should be easy. What I am worried about is my Tuesday. I have a 5 hours Bio and lab on Tuesdays. Thursdays are just the Bio class. I know that many people pull larger loads than that, but I am nervous none the less. I will do ok though.
There have been a lot of emotional changes that have gone on in my house recently. Things are good. Things haven't been this good in a long time. I am happy. It has been a while since I could say that and mean it.
It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
Since I could stand
on my own two feet again
And it's been a while
Since I could call you
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means
It's been a while
Since I could say
that I wasn't addicted
It's been a while
Since I could say
I loved myself as well and...
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
But then I go an fuck things up again
It's been a while
Since I could...
Look at myself straight
It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry
It's been a while
Since I've seen the way
the candles light your face
It's been a while
But I can still
remember just the way you taste
Everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be,
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry
I have a weekend trip planned for the 7th and 8th which I am looking forward to very much. On the 8th, I have to make sure I arrive home in time to meet my parents. I am really looking forward to seeing them. I only get to see them twice a year and this visit is being cut short.
Also, with fall quickly approaching comes a few other major changes. Hunter starts kindergarten this fall. I am not one of those parents that is sitting here weeping, crying things like, "Ooh, my baby is growing up too fast!" What I am doing is getting excited. My baby is is going to kindergarten!!! I mean, how cool is that?! It isn't something to cry about, it's something to get happy and excited about.
Also, when school starts for me in the fall, there is going to be a big shock. I am going from 3 credit hours to 13 credit hours. I know 13 isn't a lot, but I am still nervous. I have three classes on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Those days should be easy. What I am worried about is my Tuesday. I have a 5 hours Bio and lab on Tuesdays. Thursdays are just the Bio class. I know that many people pull larger loads than that, but I am nervous none the less. I will do ok though.
There have been a lot of emotional changes that have gone on in my house recently. Things are good. Things haven't been this good in a long time. I am happy. It has been a while since I could say that and mean it.
It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while
Since I could stand
on my own two feet again
And it's been a while
Since I could call you
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means
It's been a while
Since I could say
that I wasn't addicted
It's been a while
Since I could say
I loved myself as well and...
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
But then I go an fuck things up again
It's been a while
Since I could...
Look at myself straight
It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry
It's been a while
Since I've seen the way
the candles light your face
It's been a while
But I can still
remember just the way you taste
Everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be,
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry