Goodbye all!
Okay....this thing causes nothing but drama...I'm just trying to enjoy my life and all this live jorrnal thing does is cause problems between my and people that I care about. So, I'm ending tihs thing and I'm stepping away from everyone nd everything for awhile. Because, according ot some people, I don't care what my friends have to say any way and because of the hardships in my life I've basically turned into a major bitch.
Well...too bad...if you don't like the way I respond...don't ask me for advice. i want ot be all of your guys' friend, but how can I. I'm snappy and rude and yes...I think that the best thing for me to od is to step back..and as much as it sucks and I hate it, I can't think of anything else to do.
So, goodbye all. I hope that my doing this helps thing out some, because my life has been bad enough lately without having ot deal with all the drama of what people think of me or how I make other peolple feel like shit....yes, you know who you are. And just so you know, I don't mean to be snappy and in all actuality, whether you believe it or not, you are much more snappy to me than I am to you. Oh, also, I'm sorry if you feel that I don't care about what you have to say, because, believe me, I wouldn't take the time to listen unless I did, and I'm sorry that I can't give you all of the answers I need. But. when all that we talk about is guy drama, how am I supposed to. I'm not exactly the most experienced person in that area, so how am i supposed to give you the answers that you want ot hear when I don't know the answers myself. So, yes, I want ot be your friend, and I care abput our friendship as well, but how am I suppsoed to feel when you basically call me an uncaring bitch? That kinda sucks.
But yes, now that I've said all of this, i can just see how my spring break's gonna go...lonliness and sorrow. Oh well, just like the rest of my life. And yes, I know I can't blaim all my unhappiness on my grandma's death, but it hurts nad my life is filled with many more problems and I'm sorry if my sadness is affecting the way you people view me. Too bad for you. I'm not happy, I haven't been for awhile and I may never be happy again...at least I'm showing that now instead of jsut keeping it in. I feel more numb than anything, and there's nothing I can do to fix it, so I just need to step back and try alone.
So here, last words as I leave this all behind, I don't want to be anyone's counselor, because I may need the counseling more than anyone. I don't want to be anyone's advice giver when no one has advice to return to me. i don't want ot be the person that makes you feel good about yourselves when I can't even feel good about my own self. In all actuality, I just want to be your friend and want to experience the kindness of that friendship returned.
Goodbye.
Well...too bad...if you don't like the way I respond...don't ask me for advice. i want ot be all of your guys' friend, but how can I. I'm snappy and rude and yes...I think that the best thing for me to od is to step back..and as much as it sucks and I hate it, I can't think of anything else to do.
So, goodbye all. I hope that my doing this helps thing out some, because my life has been bad enough lately without having ot deal with all the drama of what people think of me or how I make other peolple feel like shit....yes, you know who you are. And just so you know, I don't mean to be snappy and in all actuality, whether you believe it or not, you are much more snappy to me than I am to you. Oh, also, I'm sorry if you feel that I don't care about what you have to say, because, believe me, I wouldn't take the time to listen unless I did, and I'm sorry that I can't give you all of the answers I need. But. when all that we talk about is guy drama, how am I supposed to. I'm not exactly the most experienced person in that area, so how am i supposed to give you the answers that you want ot hear when I don't know the answers myself. So, yes, I want ot be your friend, and I care abput our friendship as well, but how am I suppsoed to feel when you basically call me an uncaring bitch? That kinda sucks.
But yes, now that I've said all of this, i can just see how my spring break's gonna go...lonliness and sorrow. Oh well, just like the rest of my life. And yes, I know I can't blaim all my unhappiness on my grandma's death, but it hurts nad my life is filled with many more problems and I'm sorry if my sadness is affecting the way you people view me. Too bad for you. I'm not happy, I haven't been for awhile and I may never be happy again...at least I'm showing that now instead of jsut keeping it in. I feel more numb than anything, and there's nothing I can do to fix it, so I just need to step back and try alone.
So here, last words as I leave this all behind, I don't want to be anyone's counselor, because I may need the counseling more than anyone. I don't want to be anyone's advice giver when no one has advice to return to me. i don't want ot be the person that makes you feel good about yourselves when I can't even feel good about my own self. In all actuality, I just want to be your friend and want to experience the kindness of that friendship returned.
Goodbye.