over
It's over now. I never had a chance.
It went badly, and I cried all day. All the magic kids supported me and tried to make me smile. It wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't been so harsh. I needed it to end on a smooth level, and he completly denied me that.
Then I tried again, and it went better, but now I keep thinking of things I wanted to say. He said I could talk to him if I wanted, but the moment has passed I fear.
But I have my answer and I'm not allowed to wait anymore. I'm not worthy of him...ever apparently. He's lying when he said he never liked me more than a friend... and that hurts... but I understand why he said that (I think). Or it could also be that he never really did realise.
Hopefully now I won't be stressed, won't worry about what Jen thinks of me, and be able to hang around Anthony with more ease. More importantly, I think my depression will wane.
After I stop crying.
It went badly, and I cried all day. All the magic kids supported me and tried to make me smile. It wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't been so harsh. I needed it to end on a smooth level, and he completly denied me that.
Then I tried again, and it went better, but now I keep thinking of things I wanted to say. He said I could talk to him if I wanted, but the moment has passed I fear.
But I have my answer and I'm not allowed to wait anymore. I'm not worthy of him...ever apparently. He's lying when he said he never liked me more than a friend... and that hurts... but I understand why he said that (I think). Or it could also be that he never really did realise.
Hopefully now I won't be stressed, won't worry about what Jen thinks of me, and be able to hang around Anthony with more ease. More importantly, I think my depression will wane.
After I stop crying.