give me S-O-M-E-T-H-I-N-G....................
Yeah... "Life's got complicated" is traditionally the opening for an entry of mine, i usually expresse my dissatisfaction with life and was complaining that it was always complicated, yet i may just like the way it is.
Having got 5 days off because of flu, now i'm back to life. Just a few minutes ago, i've been wandering people's journals, reading their entries and i, somehow, suddenly want to post one. Actually i've wanted to do this for ever, but i couldn't help myself. How could I? How could I when life is sooooooooooo not special and have nothing to speak about?? Yeah, the world around me is so peaceful now that i find it boring.
And for no reason, i ask myself, WATT THE HECK AM I LIVING FOR?
I hate it when i go on the internet but don't know where to go.
I hate it when i click at my Window Media Player but hesitate choosing what song, then end up with deciding by the shuffle.
I hate it when i stand among friends but don't know what to talk.
I hate it when i'm at the dinner table but don't want to eat anything.
I hate it when I JUST HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH LIFE, i swear, i'm now having more free time than ever, but time has nothing to do with a blank mind. The only choice is to let the time fly...
Then WATT ON EARTH AM I DOING IN THIS LIFE?
I've always been a normal fangirling girl, i thought i would never get bored of life as my favorite boys are always around my brain. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a player, but i have to admit, when i have no feelings for "this" boy, i'd turn my head to "another" boy, The pink hearty life would never disappear, hence. But seriously, i even can't find where my passion goes. I still love Junki, Jinki, or Seunggi... as always, but what i call a "fangirling condition" is totally gone now. I just have NO FEELINGS now. - -;;
An on-the-go, a now-playing list is just out of my mind now, tooooo.....
God, errr i mean, some random things that i worship, please make my life just a little more enjoyable... Even bad things don't come to me (may it hasn't come, though i have a feeling it will soon... LOLWUT), I don't really require a good thing, just any S-O-M-E-T-H-I-N-G is okay for me. Then you can make me cry, or make me go crazy, make me laugh my ass off, or whatever.. just bring my feelings baaaaaccck!!!! I don't want to be a moving zombie, seriously :/ (a moving zombie even gets a more interesting life than me since it fights againsts sunflowers, mushrooms or somewhat :/ --hint: Popcap games lmao).
May Tet be full of bless and S-O-M-E-T-H-I-N-G. I don't really look forward to Tet this year but it comes fast (=
Lucky money, let me sink into you! Then give my some S-O-M-E-T-H-I-N-G LOL.
I feel kinda better now. *killing time, kk*
- Then up to here.