songs i wrote in amsterdam and other stuff
Here and There
It's the waiting
the feeling it's so close
yet so very distant
I can't bear it sometimes
that you're so far away
alone here my only thought
is that i can one day return
and never have to endure
the heartache of leaving again.
Returning to a place I despise
and long to be rid of once and for all
here and there
you may never see
that this means so much to me
some must not understand
you never miss what you dont have
but I miss what I want most
I wander the lonely but familliar streets of home
wanting to be back where I aught to be
you may think i'm crazy
i travel amongdt that i dont under stand
foreighn tongues i dont speak
but wheres the fun
with sticking with the familliar
One day I'll be there
by your side
fighting your batlles with you
to be with your friends
most take for granted
mine are all so far away
it hurts sometimes
but makes me more determined
I'll make it some day
The Puppeteer
You sit in your darkened room
only to come out to spread your misery
you spurn all those around you
leaving devistation in your wake
we dont know what we've done or said
to be tret in such a way
but one day i'll make you pay
you are the puppeteer
we're all pawns in your little game
we're just your little play things
to amuse then throw away
we'll this wont last forever
we'll break our strings and walk away
I've tried to understand where you are coming from
or what it is we've done so wrong
but i really dont get you
the messed up thoughts in your head
people say you re jealous
folow your own dreams instead
Yeah I know they are lame but I was bored ok :P
I miss holland, i miss hanging out with everyone. Things are bad here, im getting trat like crap, here an idea of how bad things are im so desperate to leave i've applied to work at mcdonalds to earn the money