blah, yucky days...
Right so me and deans 4 mo. was on friday right, so i got him a present and a card and ya know, nothing like real special bc he had work that night, so i just figured we would stay in and watch a movie or soemthin since he didnt get off until like 1 so he came over and after we had been in my room for a while he told me he wasnt staying, so i asked him why and he told me it was because he was going to see a movie with tessa and the kids, no big deal, i dont care, whatever, hes with his kids. sooooo the next day i was figureing hed be done pretty early,but when he hadnt called me by 6 i was like well maybe they just went to a later and he didnt have a phone to call me from, so i was like ok last movies run at 10 right so the latest he would be would be like midnight, sooo when he didnt call or show up at all yesterday i just thought he prob went home since he was so close to his house, right so i called this morning at like 12, no answer, i called back around 3 and i talked to his mom, and she told me that she hasnt seen him all day. so now its one thing to go see a movie with your babys momma, its another thing to spend the weekend with her. i dunno, i know if he come back hes just gunna be like i was with the kids, which i cant get mad for bc his kids do and need to come first in his life, i just dont see why he cant scrounge up a little bit of change and call me from a pay phone to let me know hes not gunna be around this weekend. it sucks though bc i think of all the times he came over here instead of going home to tessa while they were still together, and how crappy she probably felt, bc now hes doing the exact same thing to me. so now its sunday night, i havent heard from dean since he left here on friday, i dont knwo what to do or what to think about any of this, i wish i just had a normal boyfriend... i love dean so much, but i dont know if i can handle him shacking up with his babys momma every weekend. i dunno, my next entry will prob. just be like yay! dean came home! finally! im so happy! god im such and idiot. peace.