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These days I've run out of steam. It isn't like something ruthlessly came in and swept my feet out from under me like stilts or drained my enthusiasm (or maybe it is). I'm just remarkably stoic... and that's a rarity for someone so ridiculously emotional. My medication has leveled me to flatline, and I think my creativity and vigour went along with it.
When it comes down do it, though, I'm not even looking for the source. I just feel bad for the people around me that have to deal with this braindead human being walking around, zombified and rotting in his slowly-melting winter jacket.
Spring is here, and I'm going to have to deal with that. I used to get pretty hyped up, but nowadays it seems like the only things that activate me are my girlfriend and working out (the latter really only hurts me, because of my heart condition), ergo it's a rarity that I show anything but a flaccid brain and a placid heart.
I took 10mg tonight. Maybe that will work. Hopefully. I wanna be SO ABLE.
When it comes down do it, though, I'm not even looking for the source. I just feel bad for the people around me that have to deal with this braindead human being walking around, zombified and rotting in his slowly-melting winter jacket.
Spring is here, and I'm going to have to deal with that. I used to get pretty hyped up, but nowadays it seems like the only things that activate me are my girlfriend and working out (the latter really only hurts me, because of my heart condition), ergo it's a rarity that I show anything but a flaccid brain and a placid heart.
I took 10mg tonight. Maybe that will work. Hopefully. I wanna be SO ABLE.