Busy, busy … and a strange retrospect
Geez, I never thought I would anticipate the break over Christmas that much. I’m so ready for vacation. And I am going to enjoy the two weeks off. Really enjoy them. Without remorse.
The time of the year has come, when everybody is looking back - and this year was a summery of up’s and down’s for me. More extreme than every year before. But in the end with such a positive outcome that I still have troubles to accept the reality. Still looking out for the hidden booby trap.
I’ve lost some people who I called my best friends - and it still hurts. And will hurt for a long time. But with more and more time to think about, my own pride stepped in the way. I’m so fed up to apologize for everything and nothing, just for peace’s sake.
I’ve met some incredible people, and this goes out to three special girls - you have not the slightest idea what this crazy evening in Cologne meant to me ♥ ♥ ♥
I’ve made peace with a woman I’ve called my best friend for a long time - and this year we finally managed to speak about so much stuff that was bothering us two … and I’m so happy about it. And although we’ll keep fighting about meaningless issues, she has a special spot in my heart (maybe because I would miss those fights like hell XD)
I have never been this radical before to cut off lose ends.
I’ve moved back to the city I was born at. The most ugly city in Germany - remember: Bielefeld does not exist.
And for more than nine years I experience the feeling of real happiness again.
And there are my guys. Those complete geeks, that shot/slashed/calculated a way into my heart. And who I don’t want to miss …
Also me haz cat - finally. Stupid, clever, annoying, adorable cat. Kind of my really early Christmas present.
And if 2009 is proofing anything - then it is imho: To never give up and develop some faith in yourself. (Honestly, if somebody would have told me this on New Year’s Eve ‘08 I would have laughed out lout XD)
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