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Title: BLISS the diary entries
Band: Dir en grey
Pairing: D/S
Rating/Genre: G/ fluff/ oneshot
Originaly Posted: April 17th 2009
Disclaimer: I do not own Dir en grey, The GazettE, alice nine, an cafe or Miyavi. I do not claim to know them personally and any similarities in my stories and life are purely coincidence. Dont sue me guys, i love you ;)
May 14th
If there was one thing I could change about myself it would defiantly be my eyes.
I think there is something wrong with the way the light reflects in them. I wish they were more like..…his. Ever since I told him, he’s been avoiding me. I think he must be scared. I don’t know if he’s scared because he does feel the same way or because he doesn’t. But either way, I wish he stop trying, in desperate attempts, to avoid me. I can see the way he smiles though, when he thinks I’m not looking. ~Daisuke
May 15th
This bus is making me nauseas. Shinya is sitting at the table, writing something. I wonder what he’s writing. I could try to peek, but I’m afraid I’ll make him mad at me. Swing his wavy blonde hair around, give me an offended look and pout back his way to his bunk. Well….I might do it anyway. I love you my Shinya, ~Daisuke
May 17th
He must be crazy. I saw the way he looked at me when my fingers touched his. I can see the longing want in his eyes. Isn’t there something I can do to break down this protective shell he’s built around himself? Oh. And when I touched him, my came to his soft lips, I heard it. It sounded exhausted. We don’t have any shows for the next week. We have a break! But were still on the bus. I’m almost happy. ~Daisuke
May 18th
My head wants to cave in. There is a hammer at my skull. The bus should just tip over. No one is in here but me and Shin now. I’m surprised I can even write. Shin-Shin says I need to take a shower. My breath smells of alcohol. ~Daisuke
May 19th
If I thought my headache last night was bad, I was sadly mistaken. Oh fuck. I should learn limits. It’s not as bad as it could be. Kaoru, Toshi and Kyo are out. Toshiya was bugging them to go shopping, 31 years old and he hasn’t changed one bit. But Shin-Shin stayed with me. Mmmm…his quiet refusals to go with them ♥ its getting late. He’s sleeping opposite of me in my bunk. He is so…sweet
.And he so wants me. I love him so much. ….his steady breathing… ~Daisuke
May 20th
It was really cold last night when I fell asleep. When I woke up, I woke to Shinya curled up beside me under my blanket. I kissed his cheek, he smiled. I think he thought he was dreaming. I doubt he would have let me see that if he thought it was real. It was bliss. I love you, ~Daisuke
May 21st
Shinya gave me a little smile over the table. I think I blushed. Yes. I blushed. Kyo snickered from the couch. Maybe he knows…Yes. He knows. Maybe were getting somewhere? I think so. Shin, you feel so close…I want you more. I can feel the excitement bubbling inside me. I am crying. I want to feel your skin. I want to hold you. Why do you torture me so? I need to have you, ~Daisuke
May 22nd
He’s given into me. When the wind blew and I leaned against the cold metal, a nice contrast with the warm wind, he leaned into my arms. He touched my arms. He touched my chest. He kissed me. And let me kiss him back. What was I thinking? Do you know how much I love you, My Shinya? THIS is bliss. I belong to you, ~Daisuke
OWARI~
Band: Dir en grey
Pairing: D/S
Rating/Genre: G/ fluff/ oneshot
Originaly Posted: April 17th 2009
Disclaimer: I do not own Dir en grey, The GazettE, alice nine, an cafe or Miyavi. I do not claim to know them personally and any similarities in my stories and life are purely coincidence. Dont sue me guys, i love you ;)
May 14th
If there was one thing I could change about myself it would defiantly be my eyes.
I think there is something wrong with the way the light reflects in them. I wish they were more like..…his. Ever since I told him, he’s been avoiding me. I think he must be scared. I don’t know if he’s scared because he does feel the same way or because he doesn’t. But either way, I wish he stop trying, in desperate attempts, to avoid me. I can see the way he smiles though, when he thinks I’m not looking. ~Daisuke
May 15th
This bus is making me nauseas. Shinya is sitting at the table, writing something. I wonder what he’s writing. I could try to peek, but I’m afraid I’ll make him mad at me. Swing his wavy blonde hair around, give me an offended look and pout back his way to his bunk. Well….I might do it anyway. I love you my Shinya, ~Daisuke
May 17th
He must be crazy. I saw the way he looked at me when my fingers touched his. I can see the longing want in his eyes. Isn’t there something I can do to break down this protective shell he’s built around himself? Oh. And when I touched him, my came to his soft lips, I heard it. It sounded exhausted. We don’t have any shows for the next week. We have a break! But were still on the bus. I’m almost happy. ~Daisuke
May 18th
My head wants to cave in. There is a hammer at my skull. The bus should just tip over. No one is in here but me and Shin now. I’m surprised I can even write. Shin-Shin says I need to take a shower. My breath smells of alcohol. ~Daisuke
May 19th
If I thought my headache last night was bad, I was sadly mistaken. Oh fuck. I should learn limits. It’s not as bad as it could be. Kaoru, Toshi and Kyo are out. Toshiya was bugging them to go shopping, 31 years old and he hasn’t changed one bit. But Shin-Shin stayed with me. Mmmm…his quiet refusals to go with them ♥ its getting late. He’s sleeping opposite of me in my bunk. He is so…sweet
.And he so wants me. I love him so much. ….his steady breathing… ~Daisuke
May 20th
It was really cold last night when I fell asleep. When I woke up, I woke to Shinya curled up beside me under my blanket. I kissed his cheek, he smiled. I think he thought he was dreaming. I doubt he would have let me see that if he thought it was real. It was bliss. I love you, ~Daisuke
May 21st
Shinya gave me a little smile over the table. I think I blushed. Yes. I blushed. Kyo snickered from the couch. Maybe he knows…Yes. He knows. Maybe were getting somewhere? I think so. Shin, you feel so close…I want you more. I can feel the excitement bubbling inside me. I am crying. I want to feel your skin. I want to hold you. Why do you torture me so? I need to have you, ~Daisuke
May 22nd
He’s given into me. When the wind blew and I leaned against the cold metal, a nice contrast with the warm wind, he leaned into my arms. He touched my arms. He touched my chest. He kissed me. And let me kiss him back. What was I thinking? Do you know how much I love you, My Shinya? THIS is bliss. I belong to you, ~Daisuke
OWARI~