In which Kaboot is annoyed with herself. Rated 'W' for 'Whiny'.
Sigh, I will just find any excuse to get myself in a bad mood. Even really, really stupid excuses.
Stupid reason I'm in a funk this evening?
My inability to hold down a roleplay. Or, semi-inability.
It seems that be it the muse or the game or just real life getting in the way - but mostly the first two - something alwas mucks up my ability to join a game. The fact that most games are jamjar games and I don't like doing those doesn't really help, but...
I don't know, I enjoy disney_academy and am definitely like the idea of be part of the Phineas and Ferb cast at dramadramaduck, but I can't help but feeling that while they're both games I enjoy being a part of, neither is really... My niche. I love the people at both games, and the concepts work for me, but things don't feel completely right. It might be my muses, and I'm not sure.
To be honest, the most fun I ever had roleplaying was back in the days of the Disney dressing room... Which implies that Iago or Pleakley would be good muses for me to stick with? But playing Pleakley without a Jumba is just... It doesn't feel right. And finding someone who ships it is pretty important to me, and that can be a little tricky. As for Iago... I've thought a lot of bringing him into d_a or somewhere, but the idea of writing him an app is, for some reason, very overwhelming for me.
In the past, I've managed to work long-term gigs as Timon's Ma, Louis the 'Gator, Sid the Sloth, and Kowalski the Penguin... But honestly? Playing the first two kind of brings back sucky memories, my interest in Sid isn't always consistent, and Kowalski (or any Penguin/Lemur/Marlene) is another case of "I need a cast, preferably one that is willing to ship crazy schlit". Besides, my interest in Penguins isn't always super consistent...
TL;DR: I just. IDK. I feel like I'm looking for my fairytale ~*one true game*~, where I can app a ~*one true character*~ (or two or three), and maybe it and they just don't exist?