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So, I said this to someone today in an effort to explain my current condition/state/actions, which have all been a little out of sync with the Kat we all know and love. . .I believe that I have now reached the end of my educational rope, unfortunately, I still have a year and a half of school left.
I've gotten to the point that I come into the office, and fuck around, much like I'm doing now by writing this. I get distracted, side-tracked. But, at the same time, I know I'm not paying the attention I need to to my schoolwork, so this bothers me, and distracts me from other parts of my life.
I'm glad I'm trying to get out more, but I'm not glad that I'm doing it, often, as a distraction from being here. I'm not really sure what I can do to get a handle on it all...
And, somewhere along the way, I'm sure due to all of this 'distraction stress' I've managed to get a crick in my neck. So, now I'm distracted and unable to turn my head in any noticable direction.
I've got Pagan Pride Day coming up on Saturday. Can I let everyone know how much I'm not looking forward to this. I'm so weirded up right now, I really just want to drive down to Charlotte and hang out with the gang down there. Or at least sit on my ass with next to no agenda for the day, but no, I had to volunteer myself, what was I thinking?
I feel like I should say at least one good thing, so my lj isn't entirely morbidly depressing. Hmmm, I think the best thing I've got is that I got the office printer up and running again. This is good as myself and the 2 other students who share it have been without for 2 days -- this sucks -- I've printed somewhere between 80-100 pages today alone...
i hate your way i don't care what you say i hate
your way i don't care and i 'm only half there so i
don't care they can cut me down 'til i'm the talk of
the town i'm a fool for you had to sell my soul but
you were so rock and roll i'm a fool for you i hate
your way a little more every day i hate your way a
little more and i could leave but what for a little
more and it's wicked to be so stupid man it's stupid
to be so dumb i'm getting crooked i can feel it i
can feel it in my bones