A little emotional
I still feel off-kilter today.
It's not just because of the accident. I mean, it was pretty minor all things considered. I think it's just all the stress of everything that happened yesterday combined. On the plus side, I didn't feel nauseous or lose my appetite, so that's definite progress since summer. On the down side, the fact that I still feel like this just goes to show that I'm not entirely recovered. Another plus and minus to it; it's a weaker reaction than I was experiencing before, but it has now lasted into the next day. It's annoying feeling bothered like this. I can't tell if I'm a little high-strung or just a little sad. I don't even know why I should be either. I just want to curl in a ball and ignore everything, but of course my mind can't stop so I need to stay occupied. But I'm bothered and nervy and can't focus. Stupid emotions and the vicious cycle.
At least it's not a strong reaction anymore. I'll hold onto that positive as proof that I'm recovering. I can deal with this without curling up or hiding or clinging to someone. Someday I'll be back to my old apathetic self that can just roll with all the punches.
It's not just because of the accident. I mean, it was pretty minor all things considered. I think it's just all the stress of everything that happened yesterday combined. On the plus side, I didn't feel nauseous or lose my appetite, so that's definite progress since summer. On the down side, the fact that I still feel like this just goes to show that I'm not entirely recovered. Another plus and minus to it; it's a weaker reaction than I was experiencing before, but it has now lasted into the next day. It's annoying feeling bothered like this. I can't tell if I'm a little high-strung or just a little sad. I don't even know why I should be either. I just want to curl in a ball and ignore everything, but of course my mind can't stop so I need to stay occupied. But I'm bothered and nervy and can't focus. Stupid emotions and the vicious cycle.
At least it's not a strong reaction anymore. I'll hold onto that positive as proof that I'm recovering. I can deal with this without curling up or hiding or clinging to someone. Someday I'll be back to my old apathetic self that can just roll with all the punches.